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hi claire from leeds in england, i am from surrey in england.
if you think you have issues that may have triggered your recent feelings then councelling is a good idea. my doctor sent me for councelling when my symptoms first appeared,like you i felt detached and emotionless to begin with,my life seemed pointless,i just thought "what's the point"? i stopped going to see friends,lost interest in most things and just generally felt deflated. i have 2 children so they both suffered as a result because i didn't want to go the park etc. then when the anxiety and panic attacks started i couldn't go out of the house and i felt to afraid to stay in the house by myself. nothing had changed in my life the only different thing was that i had started taking yasmin in the january (this was 2005,i stopped taking it 6 months ago when i found this site.) i was told i had an anxiety disorder but never quite believed the diagnosis as i had never had this problem before, i have been cautious and shy all my life but never had anxiety issues really. my doctor gave me diazepam but that made me worse and so i refused all medication and started to look into causes and found this site.once i stopped taking yasmin i started to feel better quite quickly but i still have the memories of feeling bad so it is taking a while as i need to change the habit,i suppose in effect i have developed an anxiety disorder now but i never had one before yasmin! there are some great ways of dealing with the anxiety though,i have some books etc,if you are struggling please email and i could maybe send you some that might help you,i genuinely want to help as i know how horrible it is and how it feels to have no-one else that has been through or is going through this nightmare.
i wish you all the best claire and hope that you feel stronger soon.

sarah