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HI MY NAME IS NOEMI IM 27 ,MOTHER OF TWO 1 GIRL 4 YEARS OLD AND 1 BOY 1 YEAR OLD ,I USED THE NUVARING FOR THE TREE WEEKS THEN I TOOK IT OUT,AT THAT TIME I REALIZED I WAS VERY SCARED OF BEING PREGNANT BECAUSE I WAS FEELING VERY WEIRD I HAD THE CRAMPS MY BOOBS WERE BIGGER FEELING LIKE WHEN I WAS PREGNANT I WAS, WET ALL THE TIME SO UNCOMFORTABLE,FEELING SAD TIERED, SLEEPY .THEN I STARTED BLEEDING AND PASSING VERY BIG CLOTS ,THAT REALLY SCARE ME,I THOUGHT I WAS HAVING A MISCARRIAGE,I DID A P TEST IT CAME OUT NEGATIVE,SO I RELAX AND PUT ON THE NEW RING THE BLEEDING STOP ,THEN IT GOT WORSE WHEN MY BOOBS STARTED TO HURT ,I SQUEEZED MY NIPPLES AND NOTICED A WHITE FLUID COMING OUT I GOT SO SCARED I WAS SURE I WAS PREGNANT & DID ANOTHER P TEST ,NEGATIVE RESULT I TRIED TO CALM DOWN BUT AT THAT MOMENT I WAS SO MAD ,DEPRESSED HAVING TERRIBLE MIGRAINES ,TAKING EXCEDRIN 2 TIMES A DAY FEELING EXHAUSTED,SO I STARTED THINKING IT MIGHT BE THE NR I TALKED TO MY HUBBY AN HE AGREED HE SAID HE WAS GOING CRAZY ,NO SEX AN DEALING W A CRAZY BITCH SO I DECIDED TO TOOK IT OFF, AFTER 2 WEEKS ,2 DAYS LATER I HAD MY PERIOD W A DARK BROWN RED COLOR AND VERY BAD SMELL ,CRAMPS AND MORE CLOGS ITS BEEN A WEEK NOW AND I STILL FEEL MY BOOBS ENLARGED STILL FLUID COMING OUT IF I SQUEEZED THEM MY MOOD ITS GETTING BETTER AND I HAVE MORE ENERGY NOW BUT SOME HOW I STILL FEEL LIKE IF IM PREGNANT ,I NEVER ,NEVER GOING BACK ON NR, SO FAR ITS THE WORST EXPERIENCE EVER PLEASE CONTACT ME IF YOU FEEL THE SAME WAY....

So, after my boyfriend and i used condoms and it ruptured due to the fact we used a warming lubracant that wasn't water soluble.
I got pregnant and we aborted. this was 2 weeks ago
I started the nuvaring that planned parenthood gave me.

well, i've been feeling tired, depressed and not hungry.
i barely eat any food these days
and i fear my weight is slipping, i used to be 112 lbs, and i;ve been exercising for lean muscle gain (since i had very little) and now i'm up to 118.
I'm scared i'm going to lose all that lean muscle i worked hard to put on.
i haven't been working out for 2 weeks since the abortion and all.

but anyway, ive been feeling very depressed lately.
i feel ugly and unworthy and i know that neither of those are true.
i feel like i'm a terrible person, i feel sad all them, i cry so easily (like i'm doing right now)
the other night i had a breakdown when felt horribly down on my self, i felt like i'm worthless and i felt ashamed because i feel like i always want sex from my boyfriend and i feared that i i don't love him, i feared that my sex drive is out of control, and then i felt like because he doesn't want to have sex with me everyday, i felt like i must not be worthy or that i'm ugly, stupid, a pain, and that he doesn't love me and then i thought things like 'well would you want to have sex with you? who could blame him?"

today i started feeling those feelings for no reason again, this time i started feeling like i hate my life and wondering why i'm alive

when i had thought perhaps i was suffering from early adult bipolar (im 24 btw)
i had an epiphany and realized, WAIT, it probably ISN'T bipolar, if all this just happened RECENTLY
and before the ring i was really happy. AND my boyfriend never does anything to make me feel unloved or unworthy.
he always takes his time and he's very sweet to me all the time.
he treats me to almost everything and he's so patient and loving.

I realized that my sudden mood changes MUST be because of the damn Nuvaring!

i have a follow up from planned parenthood tomorrow, so i'm going to tell them everything i've felt and i'm only going to continue this damn ring until nov 24th.
i get my prenup for my tubes to be tied.

my boyfriend and i don't want kids ever, (if the recent abortion is ANY proof to that one)

anyway, i would NOT recommend this ring to ANYONE
i know everyone is different, but still.

and i do realize that i COULD be having early adult bipolar or some other sort of depression/anxiety issues that i might just THINK are ring related.
I will continue to monitor my health and if i ever feel like this again i will seek help

I have taken my 15th tablet this morning.

I already knew i was sensitive to new products, and if a small percentage of people have side effects, I'm likely to be one of them.

I browsed through the potential side effects on a my fact sheet and then put the paper away and focused on the positive effects i was looking forward to. I was keen for improvements of any sort!

Well here i am on day 15 and had to start googling to see if it is my imagination or something else.

I commend those women who stick it out for 3 months, but i just can't risk waiting around for an improvement or for it to settle.
I can handle the mid nausea that comes and goes, even the breast swelling, which has been quite extreme. I got a rash -acne like - on my face, initially my face became abnormally greasy too- like i had olive oil on my face! But the following is just not on. i can cope with physical issues, but not mental ones.

1. Moods- Depression and irritability - what a change- I am angry, nasty -want to leave my husband, say mean things to my young children. Don't care about my kids. No warmth. Feel overwhelmed by usual tasks like housework. Feel really negative about everything in my life. Feel sorry for myself for anything that is not positive or terrific. Don't feel motivated, don't care. Resent things that normally i would just go ahead and do.

Foggy brain- can't think clearly

My husband has clinical depression so this is not helpful- two of us being self centred can't work.

Anxiety- unbelievable. I'm like another person- I allow irrational negative thoughts take over. Each day is different, some worse than others.
I've been tempted even a week ago to ask for anti-depressants for anxiety and depression when i saw my doctor for something else. i thought I was going mad.

Fatigue,- some days i just don't want to do anything.

Sleep- a couple of unexplained nights of insomnia and really negative stressful dreams.

Probably other symptoms.

Everything described is an extreme and unbearable change in me, and this effect took place probably with 24 or 48 hours (I didn't keep a diary unfortunately, but the symptoms began almost immediately.

I wish it was a good experience but i am not willing to wait and see what my mental health will be like in a month or two. Not with young kids who need a mum. I just took a herbal laxative to hopefully flush out the Yaz I took this morning. No more for me.

I read these posts and regarding my being quoted as saying that it is unclear whether there are leukotriene receptors in the brain, that isn't true, there are leukotriene receptors in the brain and the relationship between neural systems involved in inflammation and mood is well established. I don't think the misquote was deliberate, I wasnt that definitive when I commented to the reporter on the 'breaking' story (she called me because I had just blogged about it and I updated the blog after I got off the phone). There are a number of parallels with other drugs used to treat medical conditions that have been associated with psychiatric side effects, you can follow the links from the March 27 post "If they dont kill us they will drive us crazy" at
http://www.beforeyoutakethatpill.com/blog.html

Doug Bremner MD