Contemplating suicide symptoms and conditions

I am on day 5 of Loestrin 24, I do not read the "pamplets" that come with medicine simply because if I read it I will get it, power of suggestion is what my doc calls it. My boyfriend noticed almost immediately my mood swings, I thought I had the flu, I cry all the time and last night, after 4 days of no sleep I planned out my own suicide in my mind, even what I would write in the letter to my parents and my new niece. I layed beside my boyfriend and convinced myself he was cheating on me, he was seeing someone else and I got up, woke him up and started throwing his clothes in the backyard. I have full blown anxiety attacks and cry all the time. I am sick on my stomach but starving at the same time, my head is splitting wide open and I am waiting on a call rom my doctor right now. I called in to work "crazy" today, thank God my boss is very understanding and I will never take this pill again in my life. This is scary and as I sit here now I'm still not sure how long this feeling will last

I started taking Doxy 100 mg July 2007 for the first time. At first I didn't link my side effects to the pills but after a break from taking it and started up again I finally out two and two together. First, it upset my stomach BIG time immediately after starting on it. I felt bloated and everything I ate upset my stomach--as the result of this I lost about eight pounds from just not eating anymore. I even went to see a GI doctor about my stomach problems! Who recommended I eat more fiber and get more exercise (I told her about all the meds I was on)! I also got sudden and very severe headaches, but the worst side effect of all is the extreme mood swings I had. I think I was going crazy and this almost ended my marriage...all of a sudden I developed low self esteem, constantly thinking I was worthless, fighting with my husband over the stupidest things and even contemplating suicide during the worst spells. I couldn't figure out why the sudden change- at first I thought it was the tough Chicago winter, since I am originally from a much warmer climate, because by this time I had been on doxy for about five months.
I was prescribed the medication to help clear up moderate acne on my back and my dermatologist gave me the prescription for a year, but never said come see me in a month, two months, etc to see how you;re doing. I am so glad that I stopped taking it in February 2008 --- my moods suddenly got better, I was myself again, I started eating again, my GI problems disappeared...and then...in April I started taking it again because with summer coming up again I wanted my acne to clear up- BIG MISTAKE! Within days of starting again my stomach started being upset all the time regardless of what I ate. After the first month I was feeling depressed again, hating myself and not knowing why--this is when i finally figured it out...and decided to stop...I'd rather have pimples on my back than feel the way this medication make me feel, which is pretty much miserable!

I started taking Lamictal for bi-polar disorder. I did the starter pack about 6 months ago. Then went up to 200mg. I felt like crap. My head was foggy, couldn't remember things, easy stuff like how to spell words that I know I can spell. Upset stomach, blurry vision terrible headaches abd migraines.
I stopped taking it and went back to my shrink and he said it's like have high blood pressure I have to keep taking it.

So I started the starter pack again and I'm up to 100 mg. I ache all over. My bones hurt so bad and after reading all of the info on here I'm going to talk to my doctor about other trestments.

My primary dr. has sent me for blood work and results were normal so she wants addition blood work done, but I think it has a lot to do with the lamictal. I'm glad I found this site, I don't feel like I'm alone.

It's hard feeling this way and friends and family think your faking or crazy, and I'm not. My mood has stabilized on this med but all the side affects suck.

Oh yeah and the weight gain! And no matter what I do I can't lose any weight. The vivid dreams are wild too. One night I woke up sweating with my heart pounding so hard from a nightmare I was having.

Thanks for all the info. I wish you all well and good luck finding the right meds.

It's 315 in the morning, I am up again for the....Wow, I can't remember when I had a good night sleep. I started taking this drug on December 5, 2004, when I was admitted into the hospital for Congestive Heart Failure. I am 29 years old, and I am seriously contemplating suicide. I have been to my doctor many times for this cough. The first time, they said the cough was caused from my smoking. So I quit. Then when it did not go away they tell me it's because I quit smoking(ironic huh?) So it still didn't go away. I went back to the doctor, and they gave me Nexium for Acid Reflux. Of course that didn't work. On Valentine's Day I had a diffibrulator inplanted in my chest, and a week ago today I had my staples removed. While the nurse was removing them I mentioned my cough to her. She tells me that Lisinopril is the cause. I stopped taking it that day. My cough is still here. I need the cough to go away. I have 4 kids, and I am only 29. I am too young to die. Someone please tell me that this cough will go away soon. I am so tired of not sleeping. I can't even go any where because people treat me like a leper. I can't talk to any one on the phone because I can't stop coughing for longer than 1 minute. Nothing works, trust me I have tried EVERYTHING. I bought every single OTC medication on the market. I drove an hour to go to an alternative medicine shop for drugs they claimed would help me. I even ordered chinese medicine on the internet, and nothing works. I keep a cough drop in my mouth 24 hours a day, and even sleep with it in my mouth. No one I know understands what it is I am going through. My husband laughs at me when I break down and cry. My kids don't know what's going on with me. I would give my right arm for this cough to go away. It does give me some comfort to know that I am not alone in wishing horrible torment to the creator of this pill. At least someone knows what I am going through. Thanks to the creator of this web site.