Death thoughts symptoms and conditions

Hey all,

thanks for your posts. I feel a bit better now i have come off it. I got a period today even though i had my last just 2 weeks ago, obviously an effect of stopping midway through a packet.

Had another night of horrific nightmares, and slept badly, but for the first time in ages i have had 2 days where i have been able to switch off, even though i have strayed to the same thoughts they have been easier to stop and turn off and they are not there the whole time, that is major improvement!

Going to doc tomorrow so will talk to him about that. In germany so must do it all in german, i think some stuff gets lost in translation!

Will be happy when these death thoughts disappear, it is like i have a major obsession with it, is very depressing. My dreams are full of it, and i hate that, my poor boyfriend gets no sleep for me screaming constantly in my sleep!

I can't wait to see how this pill works, it would be nice to think of the future and not imagine it wont be there cos i won't be there to see it, i might start to enjoy what i have for once. I told my family about my problems and somehow it seems a bit better. Going home to england for a week on friday so we will see.

Thanks for your support, i hope you all are doing ok, i'm glad to know i am not the only one, but why has no drug company or doctors realised this???

Linzi

Dear Linzi,

Firstly throw away your pill packet, i too was just like you i went to the er three times thought i was having a heart attack and it was just full blown anxiety attack and the other lovely numbness side effects of this poison.
I too couold not work, thought i was going to die in the middle of the night, had constant death thoughts, could not cpe etc.
THERE IS HOPE, this week i am 10 weeks off this poison they call yasmin and i am feeling sooo much better. The anxiety is a lot better, the paranoia is all but gone and when ifirst was off yasmin i could not even walk past my letter box i was so fatigues and could never work out why. It took me weeks of just waslking slowly each day ( to help my anxiety) and then this past week i have managed a 5kilometer walk each day with my children (CHRISSY you would be s proud) and i am feeling like i am getting my life back. IT IS SLOW and that first two months if it were not for the girls here i dont think i could have done it, but think of it this way you stop the pill, and then you just let your body recover. If you continue taking this pill then its just another day, week month that you continue to let this hell control your body.
antidepressants are not the answer , try something natural, are you living in australia, if so i will give you some names of the things that i took, i understand you feel you need something but trust me give yourself a few months and you wont be 100% but you will be on the way to being you again.

Good Luck
Lisa
p.s all symtoms are worse at ovulation time and te week of your period remember that.

and thanks to all the girls that have constantly been there for me i could not have come this far ( and i have a way to go) without you all.......