Dipression symptoms and conditions

I was given toprol after a bad bloody nose. I have always had to deal with some depression but this drug made me want to die. Sadness, isolation, hopeless, uncontrollable anxiety, fear of being alone, non stop tears, stomach ache, the list goes on and on. Yet no one warned me of any of it. It was so scary I thought I was having a nervous breakdown.

i feel no emotions while taking effexor. no anxiety, mind you, (which is what i was using it for---GAD.) so no anxiety is good, but is it good to not feel any sorrow, empathy, joy or happiness??? I feel like i am just going through the motions of life, not really living it. but if i don't take even 1 dose, the anxirty comes back. (but the other emotions come back too) i cry more if i miss a dose, and that used to worry me into thinking i am depressed....BUT it is normal to cry when you feel sorrow or empathy. and maybe the tears have to come flowing out as a form of release, because they were withheld for so long by the effexor. other possible side effects could be: insomnia; headaches, clenching teeth, biting cheek and tongue a lot, constipation and weight gain. (hard to know if these are side effects of effexor, or symptoms of fibromyalgia).