Gonna jump symptoms and conditions

I am a 36 year old African American Female. I have been on Toprol for 4 years. I take 25mg a day. At one point a dr. recommended I take 50mg a day. That was horrible. All of my side effects were worse. I decided to break the pills and stay at 25mg. The lower dosage is better. At 36, I look like I am in my early 20's! Most people guess my age at about 24. I don't feel like it at all. I am always tired, I don't have orgasms ( which is bad when you have boyfriends in their early 20's all the time) and I have anxiety and depression. I love to have fun but toprol keeps me depressed, uninterested and I cry for no reason at all. I just feel severely sad for no reason at all and cry. It is horrible. I was prescribed toprol for rapid heartbeat and mildly high bp. That it works for, but the side effects are gruesome! I tried another med for a month and I thought my heart was gonna jump out of my chest. I have 2 sons: 10 and 16, I can't be depressed and crazy all the time. I am very attractive and I want to enjoy life now that my kids are older. I'm getting off toprol!

Last night I went to ER because I had food stuck in my throat. They gave me Reglan to help and immediately after the injection I became very restless, anxious, and highly agitated. I can honestly say it took all my self control not to completely loose it. My husband was actually scared that I was going to do something to hurt myself or someone else. I wanted to rip out my IV and run out of there. I kept obsessively saying for him to take me home. That medicine was without a doubt the worst thing I have ever felt. I have been through a lot and have had more than my share of medications and surgeries but, this is at the top of my never to do list again. I had to have an injection of Ativan to calm me down. I was pacing and then I would sit for a few seconds and then I would get up again. Not fun. I hope that no one has to go through this ever. I can completely relate with the person who said they felt like they were coming out of there skin. I hope the FDA takes this off the shelf. Not a good drug IMHO.