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I had Mirena inseted Nov. 2007. Two months later my periods went from 3-7 day periods to icky brown discharge and a period in the middle of the brown discharge. The doctor said it was normal and would go away eventually. Ten months later I had it removed, because guess what? The brown never stopped. As a matter of fact the longer I went the shorter the period got, but the longer the brown lasted and it lasted longer than a regular period ( a week and a half ). My period started back almost immediately, along with sever cramps. Today, three days after having it removed a clot the size of I would say 1/8 of a cup came out (I apologize for the graphic image, I'm getting to a point, I promise). Never having seen clots in that fashion, I almost freaked.
Well I did some reading and apparently the blood from my "disappearing" period was actually pooling in my uterus. Why? Well the only logic deduction form all this would be that the Mirena cause that nice little, unexpected side effect.
This is after it was removed. While I had it in there were lost of side effects I didn't know were being cause by the Mirena until I read this page.

Side effects included: Bloating, Drowsiness (we are talking sleeping from 7-8 hours a day to 10-12 hours a day), Irritability ( I mean I was already on anti-moody pills! but after being put on Mirena, it was like I wasn't even taking my pills), Weight gain, apatite increase, Depression, oily skin and break outs, cramps, headaches, and probably more than I can remember right now.
That was just me. It Was so embarrassing to begin with the brown smelly show, because I could smell myself all the time. I was advised not to use tampons, so keeping up with panty liners for over a week really cause some skin irritation.

Flowerbabies,
You mentioned in your last posting about how to deal with anxiety attacks, specifically replacing negative thoughts with positive ones. When you said this about negative thoughts, I knew it was time to ask this. I am so ashamed to ask this question, because I have not told anyone this in detail, but has anyone else had very grim or violent thoughts? I mean thoughts that you would NEVER think normally? It is getting a lot better for me - I do not have them as much anymore but sometimes a very violent or graphic image will pop into my head for no reason, and I will get scared and think "Why is my brain thinking this awful thing?" I usually always get a panic attack after these thoughts, because I am afraid I am going crazy. I am a very sensitive person and do not expose myself to violent images, so these thoughts that I feel like are happening to me - instead of me controlling what I am thinking - scare me half to death. It has taken me 2 months to ask this question on here because I am so ashamed. I do want to add though that in general I feel much much better, and these thoughts do not appear as often as they used to. I am assuming the reason for this is lack of serotonin production in the brain or at least my hormones/brain/chemicals trying to get back on track, etc., which I am trying to combat with valerian, vitamin b supplements, etc. Anyway, am I the only one with thoughts such as this? Please please please write back if you have experienced this hell.