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I have been on Yaz for almost two years - I quit last week. I was put on it after being diagnosed with PMDD and, for the most part, it helped a lot and I thought it was the answer to all my problems. After the first year I was on it though, my symptoms started to return and worsen. I started having severe anxiety issues. It was as if my body couldn't process the stress in my life anymore (which was no more than any other college student with a medium-heavy workload) and its only reaction was to go into full-fledged panic mode. I experienced a steep drop in my self-esteem to the point where I'd sit and look out at everyone else wondering how it was that they could find so many things to be happy about. My life is pretty great - no severe illnesses, functional family, graduated with a degree, great friends, great church - and I couldn't think of any reason to be happy. No one should have to consciously and objectively list things to be happy about and then try to convince themselves that they just forgot about them. I found that I'd rather be alone than be with even my closest friends and family members. It was the sad version of my angry PMDD anti-socialness. Anyway, months of chronic stress and depression led to a panic attack last year that took me nearly two months to recover from (nausea; tingling sensations in my arms, legs and face; lack of appetite; tightness in my chest; trouble sleeping, etc...) and the sensation of detachment that comes with a panic attack has only recently begun to subside. This detached feeling lends itself well to having a cruddy memory. I'll look at pictures from a year ago and not remember what has happened between now and then - it feels as if those pictures are just from the other day or the other week. I don't really remember the semester of my panic attack. My memory feels second-hand, like someone told me about it but I never really lived it myself. I sometimes have moments where I just forget where I am when I'm driving to my sister's house, 15 minutes away. It only takes about a minute to regain my sense of direction and remember what street I'm on - but it's a scary minute! I don't think that all of my experiences were caused or made worse by the pill (I hope not, since when I actually need birth control for birth control purposes I'll have a hard time finding a low enough dosage that doesn't screw me up), but I'm going off of it to see how I feel on my own. I'd rather be mad for a week every month and combat it with more exercise, music and a fleet of vitamin B12 than be sad all the time.

I have been Ambien for about 3 years. I finally get a good nights sleep. I look forward to the little white pill which gives me rest. Recently, much to my dismay I have been experiencing something that really troubles me. I have to assume it is Ambien because nothing else has changed with me. I have become very paranoid with my friends. I don;t know how else to explain it. Other than that and that is huge, because I am constantly looking over my shoulder for something I have done, I am beginning to trust no one. Is anyone else experiencing any of this? I am typically a friendly easy going person with a lot of friends but in the past year things have changed. I've accused friends of things and have lost a lot of their friendships. I can't afford to lose anymore no matter how nice I might be,(or I think I am) I am beginning to question myself. Am I going nuts or is it possibly the little pill that gets me through the night. Can anyone help me with this dilemma, I can't afford to lose any more friends or loved ones. Help! I'm going to try to go off my little pill that brings peace to my life but I have to know if I'm going crazy or is it the medication. This is my last night to use it I think.
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It all makes sense now. I have been taking Aviane for over 2 months now. I have weird bouts of severe depression even though my life is good now. Got a great job, fantastic bf, great friends, etc. But I went totally crazy, esp. on my bf for no reason.
In addition, I have migraines. And my back has broken out like crazy (I have no have back acne, ever). I was so stupid to buy a whole years worth. This is the worst bc pill I have ever taken (though sprin-tec comes in a close second). I have anxiety attacks . Also, I would wake up in middle of night and not be able to fall asleep (never had that problem before). I think I may be losing more hair then usual too.
I use to be so easy going. WHAT HAPPENED TO ME? AVIANE. That's what. Avoid at all cost. I wish I had.

....ok, it is 4am and I am never up at 4am....been up all night...in reading some of these other posts aparently this drug causes insomnia. I have been on Ambien for years now and have not had trouble sleeping with the Ambien, until tonight. I even got up and took a second Ambien...no help. I feel wired and jumpy. No evil thoughts though.

The ironic part is that my neurologist just put me on geodon for a headache that I have had for almost three years. One nonstop every day all day all night headache for 3 years. I have been on meds that had other wonderful side effects such as an unexpected ability to lactate, wieght gain (50lbs) and oh of course there was the time that I asked for a stronger pain med than oxycodone and he put me on the same medication they give herione addicts...that made me lose 2 full weeks of my life and almost lost great friends and family.

I am surprised by the insomnia...I started with 20mg per day, increasing it to 20mg 2x per day....and here comes the insomnia....I guess there could be worse things! I dont care for the tightnessd in my jaw and lower facial area which causes me to look like i am making a sour face -as my husband put it.

time will tell if i stay on this...should be interesting if they take me off of it as I am also going to try to quit smoking in the next few weeks. Could be a bad combination.

thanks for reading!