Happy day symptoms and conditions

I know this is long, but I could really use your help, so I would appreciate you taking the time to read through to the end. (thanks :-) )

First, I want to thank everyone posting. I needed to read this stuff because I'm absolutely terrified of what's happening to me. I'm on the second week of my very first pack of Loestrin- my very first birth control pill EVER. I didn't want to start, but my OBGYN encouraged me to, once I told her I had 8 day long episodes of clots, cramping, vomiting and just sheer misery once a month. She said this would help if I'm sure to take it as recommended.

So I took the first one the Sunday after my period started, at 8:45am and have taken it religiously since. I have not changed my diet or routine. I exercise and eat fairly well. And there are no particularly stressful factors in my life. I am also quitting smoking- just down to 2-3 a day instead of 10 or 15.

Now that I've been doing this for 2 weeks, I think I would rather suffer what I had before. At least it was predictable! I have been bleeding for 5 days now. And this is NOT my time to be on my period. I'm sad and tired. I have back pain and on-and-off cramps. I have nearly no sex-drive. My boyfriend and I had sex at least 4 times a week and I masturbated on the nights we didn't. And although he is INCREDIBLY supportive, I can tell he feels lost and helpless around me. I don't want him to touch me, hold me, or even breathe on me! Normally, we are very affectionate and I am active and fun. Now, I just want to be left alone. I feel fat, unwanted, dirty, depressed...the list goes on.

I feel as though there is something seriously wrong with my body, because I shouldn't look or the feel the way I do or bleed like I am. I called the doctor and she said that I should give it till the end of the month. But 1 month is a long time to live with a depressed quality of life. 1 month is a long time to cry yourself to sleep with alcohol and Motrin.

I feel angry that the best the medical society can do is give us something that is trial and error, fully aware that it may hurt us, though temporarily, and make the lives of the people around us miserable. I am concerned the even my doc is in the pocket of some pharmaceutical company to give me a drug that she said would help and has only hurt.

Or maybe I'm just paranoid...

Anyone have any encouraging reasons why I should continue this? My sister, who was on Ortho for a while and DIDN'T like it, suggests that I stick out a little longer and I trust her opinion, but would like more. I'm open to suggestions or comments. (Especially if you know a way to stop my period so I spend less days of the month on it than I am on...)
Thanks :-)

I am 18 years old and have been on Loestrin 24 Fe since July 1st. This is my first time on birth control. For the first week of taking it I was on my period and it lasted almost 7 days with 3 more days of spotting after. I have not noticed any of the horrible side effects that i have read here. But recently for the past 3 days I have been extremely irritable. I have crazy mood swings in a matter of seconds. I could be having a great happy day and suddenly I'm on a rampage or I feel like crying. I sometimes have weird vivid dreams but thats normal for me. I am normally a carefree happy person. My boyfriend has experienced most of my mood swings. He's just as concerned as I am. I feel really bad for f***ing out on him and everyone else. I hope this doesn't last long.

I had the mirena for about 4 months and it turned my world up side down! I am normally a very happy person but there was not one happy day while i had the mirena! During those 4 months it was a nightmare, i was soooo tired i never wanted to get up or even try to look good. I gained 20 lbs, was so bloated, had cramps, was soo irritated, hated my boyfriend for no reason, and was very self conscience(this drove me crazy). i also had bad memory and felt like i was living in a daze! I didn't realize how bad things until i finally broke down at work and bawled in front of everyone! that night i went online and just by chance i found this website! It has been such a blessing! SO i got the evil iud out the next week, although im still having one problem its been about 6 weeks since its been out and im still having the weirdest discharge, its like the texture of an uncooked egg and theres so much? is there any one who has this and is there any way to get rid of it?

I've been taking Aciphex for 5 days. I might have to stop taking this medication because it scared me. This happened when I went to bathroom, I saw red blood on my stool in toilet bowl. I've never made anything like that before. Besides, I feel weak all the time when I'm on the medication. I'll call my doctor tomorrow. Just wanted to share my experience here. Wish everyone have a healthy and happy day.

Update.....

I am now about 5 days post Yasmin and the period started this morning. I have been horrifically anxious with panic attacks for weeks now and I don't know if it's because the period arrived or what but today I am much better. Still feeling anxious deep down but nowhere near as bad. I sure hope this continues and improves with each day.

Even yesterday I was crying for no reason and had bad anxiety. Today I seem more controlled, so far anyway. Mornings have always been the worst for me. I can only hope that because I was on this crap a.k.a. Yasmin for only 2 1/2 cycles that maybe my recovery from it will be swift....I pray anyway.

Hope everyone else going through this is feeling better daily too. I still have an appt with my RE/GYN on Thursday to discuss my options and hopefully he will agree to some Xanax as needed. I adore him as a doctor and I hope he doesn't disappoint me.

Happy day to all-
Denise