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Reading over some of these posts and wanted to share my experience w/Lamictal. Been on it over 2 year, 400mg/day. Sever bipolar with mixed & rapid cycling episodes. Oh YEA...I have side effects too: blurred vision that comes and goes, super klutziness, confusion, hard to complete sentences sometimes (just can't find the words sometimes for the simplest sentence!), dizziness, prone to broken blood vessels under the skin when bump into something or carry loaded grocery bag over my arm, jittery, short term memory loss, feeling really stupid like my brain isn't working sometimes. BUT...I will stay on this med because it rally works for me and the above effects are and bad, just frustrating. It took me a good 5-6 months for the meds to work as they should. Be aware that it won't make things perfect, mood swings and even moderate episodes can be expected. I am pretty much in a constant state of mild/moderate mania (2 hr sleep/night, hi energy, talk to fast, mind racing,etc), which is fine for me, as it really curbed the depression (maybe only 1 day every 2 months now and its NOT a BAD downer) I have found the drug is a good "stabilizer" keeping me mostly in a normal to moderate swing...never any severe swing. If the side effects are not unbearable, stick with the med, just be patient. It sure works for me. Learn to laugh at the klutziness and stupid moments and understand its the med and you. GOOD LUCK TO YOU ALL!

I made my appointment yesterday. It comes out tomorrow. I had my first anxiety attack on Monday Feb 2nd. I thought I was dying and to make it worse I was driving. I'm paranoid. I can't help but cry right now. I have blurry vision I feel awful. I was thinking its only anxiety and nothing to do with the Mirena, but I don't need this in me. I'm not chancing it. I don't want to have children right now especially how things are going, but I'm not willing to go insane just to prevent it. I want my mind back. I want my life back. Even if this isn't the cause of it I won't give it the slightest chance.

I was doing well for a while then this year certain things started changing in my body. I'm not willing to keep it in. I can't feel the strings so I hope nothing bad has happened. I'll find out tomorrow at 3:30 Pray for me. I need your prayers I'm so paranoid.