Melody symptoms and conditions

When i was 13 i was put on paxil for major depression. I stayed on it till i was about 17 after a downward spiral of depression that lead to a suicide attempt. After that the doctors decided that Paxil wasn't benefiting me anymore and decided to take me off of it, cold turkey. At that time i was on 40mg.
I started getting zapping headaches, muscle spasms, i was sensitive to light, my body ached, i had hot flashes, pretty much anything over stimulated me... i was irritated with just hearing anyone talk, i was completely out of touch with anything around me and i didn't feel like i was real.. I basically shut myself in my room for over a month getting over paxil. My family was afraid i was planning suicide.
After that, it's made me afraid to take any of my prescribed antidepressants, but i just cannot go through that again. At the time they put me on it, there was nothing that said that it was addictive, i was even told that there was no proof that it was addictive.
Also, I still experience the headache zaps to this day, and im 22 now, and i never had those type of headaches before paxil. I really think my mental illness is a lot worse from paxil. I have depersonalization disorder now, my short-term memory's crap, im more uncoordinated, im a lot more depressed and social phobic.. i know part of it could be from not taking any meds at all.. but i know that paxils really screwed me up, and i would have been a lot better not taking it at all. I just wish they would have warned me before putting me on it, or warning me before taking me off.

OKay, I don't know if this has anything to do with Mirena or not, but I have had my implant since August 2006. Typically I am a very happy, healthy person. I eat extremely heathy (almost all organic, tons of vegetables & fish & almost no processed foods). Anyhow, for the last 6-8 months have have become VERY moody. I am often grumpy, I cry everyday, I have pain in my joints (I believe it to feel like arthritic pain). My finger joints are always sore. I am a fit person & am uncapable of opening a jar anymore. And, I have this nagging pain in my lower back to the left of my spine. Like I said, I'm not sure if this is because of my mirena implant, but I take no other medication, I don't even take OTC pain meds. I'm only 27 and consider myself to be very healthy. I'm not sure what else it could be. I suppose I will have it removed & see if I can become a normal human being again. I appreciate anyone else who can share their experience...I just want to know if I'm crazy or not???

I have been taking wellbutrin xl-300 mgs for about 7 months now, all of asudden I had butterflys in my stomach, I am overthinking EVERYTHING, I am not happy, I am so moody, then my Dr, told me to add 5 mgs of lexapro, still the same - so i halfed the 300 to 150 wellbutrinxl plus the 5mg of lexapro- still I m having butterflys- not as much, but its there the same , justa milder touch?? Do you think I dont ned it anymore??? please answe this for me, or give me some suggestions as to what is going on.
thanks
melody

THANK GOODNESS for this site! I've been taking Yasmin for almost 3 years, ladies. I absolutely have to be on the pill, though. One reason is, a man can just look at me cross-eyed and I'll get pregnant. I have 3 lovely kids now I don't want to have any more.

I also have to be on the pill, because all the women in my family (including myself) have horrible PMS, cramps and general depression. During our periods the depression can become quite extreme. I took notice after reading this site that, I have been consistently depressed for about 2 years now and thought it was just genetic. My first year on Yasmin was great. That's why I took it - VERY LITTLE OR NO PMS, it claims.

About a year ago, I went to get a physical and had my thyroid checked. The doctor told me, "Maybe you're just one of those people who needs more sleep." I do like sleeping.... just not all day! With Yasmin, I've noticed I will wake up and need to go back to bed just 2 hours later, in addition to feeling hopeless.

I know trying find the right BCP is like playing Russian Rulet for some of us. I am 37 and, until I can just worry about menopause, I need to find something to prevent pregnancy and all the other undesireable side effects.

HAS ANYONE FOUND A PILL or OTHER SOLUTION THEY ARE AT EASE WITH?

Thanks ladies,
Melody