October 8th
2009
5:54 AM
My post is going to read similarly to all the other posts. It's 2:45 a.m. and I got up, feeling like I was having a heart attack. I went online to see if I could learn more about Lisinopril. I've been taking 10mg for just over two weeks. I've been short of breath, wheezing, sore throat just started, had chest pains and palpitations, lowered body temperature, and mild anxiety. I was put on this medication to lower significantly elevated blood pressure -- at times as high as 212/106. That scared me! I don't want to have a stroke and yet, on this medication, I feel terrible. My BP is lower which is good and my headaches have subsided, but considering the side effects I've already experienced, I'm reluctant to continue with this drug. I see my doctor on in a couple of days and I'm hoping she has a better option. I also take Atenolol and am wondering if upping that dosage is a viable option as I've had no notable side effects with that drug. Thank you all for your posts.
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September 30th
2009
2:14 PM
I am on 75mg in the morning and 50mg in the evening (125mg/day total), for my seizure disorder. If I could get off of it I would because I know how bad psychiatric drugs are. I used to be on various antidepressants for about 4 or so years, until I learned that "mood disorders" are all a crock, and drug companies are making a killing off of all the psychiatric drugs. Did you know that it has never been proven that depression or bipolar or whatever is caused by chemical imbalances?? It has been proven, however, that psychiatric drugs mess up the brain. Do some research on this. Go to the sight ****** I am so thankful I am off antidepressants but my life will never be as good as it was before I ever put the first one in my mouth. I would encourage everybody who has been diagnosed with "bipolar" to slowly and gradually withdraw from your medication and don't give up until 6 months have past. It takes a very long time for the drugs to get out of your system and you will feel like you are going through hell as you withdraw but in the end it is all worth it. Back to the Lamictal, I have now been on it for about 4 years. It does not control my myoclonic jerks completely (I have Juvenile Myoclonic Epilepsy) but controls my grand mal seizures as long as I take care of myself. I have pretty much no side effects, except for possibly poor memory/forgetfullness/can't find the word I'm looking for/etc, and possibly some slight "ocd" tendencies. It is hard to distinguish from the leftover effects of being on antidepressants (which caused me a lot of anxiety, panic attacks, depression, etc), because I do have some mild anxiety left over from them, but has drastically improved. The man problem I am suffering now from the Lamictal is feeling the effects of it wearing off in the evenings. In the last few months I have been feeling that feeling on and off throughout the whole day!! And my myoclonic jerks are increasing. I really don't want to go up on my dosage due to the brain damage psychiatric drugs cause and all the bad side effects I could experience, but neither do I want to change medications because I am at a very stressful time in my life where I am already going through a lot of changes. No idea what to do. Just wish that God would heal me of my seizure disorder!!! (it is a kind I am told I will never grow out of) Even if I had to go through the withdrawal from the Lamictal it would be worth it! If only...
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April 17th
2009
2:17 PM
I agree with summrsweetie -- even though I didn't like Aviane, it isn't a bad idea to wait it out a FEW months to get your body adjusted. Things like this do take time.
As for the anxiety, when I first started birth control a few years ago, I had mild anxiety issues. But, it was unclear whether this was from the BC or from the antidepressants they were prescribing me. It seems as though it could be the antidepressants, which I've since stopped taking. But I wouldn't rule it out that it was the BC. Bodies react strangely when any new medication is started.
-- By love2sing | Reply | Private Message me
April 11th
2009
6:16 PM
I just finished a 7 day course of AVELOX. Dr. prescribed it for a sinus infection. Had some side effects, mostly feeling out of it, dizziness, confusion, and mild anxiety. I also had some minor numbing feelings. I took my last pill on Thursday (2 days ago). I am still feeling a bit out of it with pressure in my head. My legs feel like they keep falling asleep.
Can some help me and tell me how long it took for the side effects to subside?
Thanks
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February 28th
2009
3:40 PM
On day 8 of 500mg/2x day of Biaxin, yesterday, I woke up with large red patches in my mouth, along with that white cottage-cheesy stuff I always associate with thrush. Went to doc and she said, nope not thrush, another virus (I've been sick with one upper respiratory virus after another for 2 months). She gave me Nystatin, "just in case" it is thrush.
Now I'm reading this site and thinking perhaps my mouth sores are a reaction to Biaxin. I've also been experiencing the weird dreams, mild anxiety and been wondering about it, but hadn't associated it with Biaxin until reading the posts here. Hmmm.
Before being on the biaxin, I was on Levaquin and had an allergic reaction to it--hives all over my body.
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February 26th
2009
11:36 AM
Oh my god..... Thanks you all because until i read this blog I seriously thought I should go check myself in at the nearest asylum.....
I had a mirena fitted in Sept 08 and although I did already suffer with PMT in the form of a low mood and feeling a little insecure it was NOTHING compared to how i am feeling now... I cry for no reason, have mild anxiety, terrible Insomnia, and mild depression and need so much re-assurance and basically just feel like everything is a bit too much to handle and my period may be lighter but lasts much longer... I've been so worried about driving my poor boyfriend away who doesn't really know how to deal with it
I'm going to call my doctor now to get it removed ASAP!!
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February 19th
2009
2:02 PM
I could have wrote many of these same posts. Had Mirena inserted two weeks ago, and the nightmare began shortly thereafter. Mood swings so bad I felt like I wanted to swing at anything (which is not like me at all). Then the crying for no reason, mild anxiety. Insomnia, depression, nightmares, feeling of depersonalization and a non-stop headache from the time it was put in, until 2 days after removal.
Had it removed this Monday. Doctor agreed I was having a reaction to the IUD medication, and stated it was his fault to recommend it to me.
December 9th
2008
12:57 AM
I began taking birth control pills at 16 to help control excruciating cramps that have now been diagnosed as endometriosis. Every pill I have taken has regulated my period but seems to have some other side effect. Aviane however, is most definitely the worst I have tried. I was taking Allesse, but had to switch to Aviane because of mild anxiety problems. It turns out, since taking Aviane (approx. 5 months) my anxiety has gotten worse, I suffer from nightmares, as well as extreme irritability. I become furious over the smallest things and I am typically a laid back person. I spend 3 days in bed during my period vomiting and with severe cramps, but this is due more to the endometriosis than anything. PMS starts about 2 weeks before I get my period, and I am extremely irritable for about a week after, this has not happened on any other pill. I go through periods of extreme depression, hopelessness, and am extremely tired. Also, since switching to Aviane I have battled with severe acne which I have never experienced before. I have gained a huge amount of weight. I am just waiting to see my doctor to get me off this horrible pill.
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September 28th
2008
11:09 AM
I was prescribed both Biaxin XL and Tussionex for acute bronchitis. At fist, the side effects were quite mild...drowsiness, "medicine head", some dizziness, however, as the treatment progressed, the side effects became much more severe...heavy sweating at night, insomnia, increased anxiety, depression. I thought I was losing my mind! I have a history of mild anxiety (one anxiety attack in my life due to being sleep deprived for 48 hours), however, during the course of this treatment, it seemed that I had experienced at least 4 or 5 panic/anxiety attacks at precisely the same time every day??? I have never been exposed to either hydrocodone nor a macrolide antibiotic, and have never experienced "mental" side effects from meds in my life.
Has anyone had further testing...allergy testing, blood work? I am going to be talking to my family physician soon, and really want answers. This experience scared the life out of me! Please let me know if anyone has had any viable answers for their ordeals.
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March 28th
2008
12:10 PM
My almost 7 year old son was prescribed Singulair 3 years ago for severe asthma and allergies. It worked great--for a while. No hospitalizations, incidences of bi-lateral mucous plugs and pneumonia decreased, etc. I thought it was a miracle drug for him. This past summer/fall however, the nightmares, sleepless nights, multiple sinus infections, moodiness and mild anxiety, extreme hunger (he can now eat my 6'7" 260 lb. husband under the table and my son only weighs 52 lbs.), thirst, leg pains, reflux and very frequent complaints of stomach aches and nausea, etc. began. He was even admitted to our local Children's hospital in November for a severe upper respiratory infection that affected his asthma and blood oxygen levels and for the first time ever, did not respond to therapy. He was on oxygen for 3 days. Not realizing all this was likely due to Singulair, I took him to his ped. pulmonologist, pediatrician, ped. allergist, a ped. gasteroenterologist, and an ENT. None of our doctors suspected the Singulair--and I still have confidence that they are all good doctors. In December, he had surgery to cauterize the inferior turbinates in his nose and remove his adenoids to try to alleviate the sinus infections. At the same time, we had an upper G.I. series done to see if we could find what was causing all the stomach aches and reflux. The GI doctor found nothing. I am just sick to think that Singulair did all this to him, that we put him through surgery to try and "fix" the symptoms, and doctors and parents didn't know enough about the side effects of this drug to suspect it as a possible culprit!! I called our pulmonologist and pediatrician this morning to report my suspicions and took him off it. I sure hope his symptoms will improve.
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February 10th
2008
2:21 AM
While taking Levaquin I experienced insomnia and anxiety. One week after completing 500mg a day for 10 days, I began experiencing Tendonitis in my right hand/wrist and have had an incredibly painful earache with tinnitus and vertigo. The ENT doctor diagnosed TMJ, but I do not grind my teeth or clench my teeth. My jaw operates just fine with no immediate pain, but the earache persists almost constantly. The ENT doctor's solution was Vicodin, but I want a cure not a pain treatment. I don't believe I have TMJ and wonder if it could be the temporal tendon. I am indirectly aware of two other people who have had the same experience, and I wonder how many others are out there. If any one else has experienced this and has any knowledge or advice to offer, I would greatly appreciate it. I have no idea who to go to about this. The ENT doctor does not have any solutions, and I doubt a dentist can help me because I don't think it's TMJ.
-- By rachelb | Reply | (5) replies | Private Message me
December 15th
2007
5:39 PM
First day on 25 mg. I feel like I could sleep the rest of my life. Also I had diarrhoeaea 3 times as well as a very uneasy first night of sleep. Woke up sweating and very anxious like I was having an anxiety attack. I don't think my mild symptoms are intense enough for this drug. I'm stopping. Or should I give it a chance? My symptoms are just mild anxiety in social and work situations. I can deal but I wanted to feel better as in absolutely no anxiety. Oh and also I have absolutely no appetite but I did manage to have sex today with no problems. lucky I guess. Please respond with your thoughts...thanks
-- By peanutavalon | Reply | (1) replies | Private Message me
October 12th
2007
7:38 AM
About 4 months ago I was put on a 10 day treatment of 500 mg Levaquin, because of an on going sinus infection. I took the pills for 5 days and experienced muscle twitching, weakness, dizzyness, upset stomache, irregular fast heart beat, extreme anxiety, I had this weird tingling numb feeling from my knees down and couldnt sleep at all. I called my doctor after 2 days of the medication and told her about my side affects and she told me to continue the medication. After 5 days went by I looked up this web site and was shocked to hear that I wasnt alone. I threw away the rest of the medicine and prayed I wouldnt have long lasting affects. I continued to have muscle twitching, cramping, and weakness for the next 3 months and my leg muscles would ache and tighten by themselves. I have played sports my entire life and had just gotten done my season of college basketball before I got sick and after I took this medication I could barely walk up the stairs without feeling like I was going to pass out. I was in and out of the hospital having blood tests they tested me for lyme disease, and did 2 cat scans of my head. I went to a neurologist and had tests done worrying it was ms or als and they sent me to have an MRI of the brain and my neuroligist asked me if I had been on any medications and I told him levaquin. After 3 months of crying myself to sleep being put on about 8 different medications to control my anxiety my neurologist diagnosed me with BFS. BFS is a neaurological disease that affects your nerves. It is not life threatening but many people suffer because of the anxiety that comes along with the disease and I get muscle twitching all over my body and feel tired most of the time. It took me to get a long time to feel even a bit better but I began taking magnesiun, B12, Potassium, and other ones to help nerve function and a mild anxiety medication and I have felt a little better. Nobody believed me when I told them my illness was from levaquin but after I was diagnosed I realized that just 5 pills may have ruined my life. Now today I have my good days and bad. I just turned 21 but I cant drink or have caffiene because of BFS. I met the love of my life about 3 weeks after I got out of the hospital and I knew we were meant to meet because his step father had passed away a month before. His step father took levaquin for an infection and his kidneys and liver failed 11 days later and he passed away. I was so devastated when my boyfriend told me about this and called my parents to tell them how SCARED I WAS. I am dealing with what this medication has done to me by staying positive, and telling as many people as possible about how bad this medication is. I wish I would have rad this site before I took those 5 pills but I didnt. Levaquin should not be on the market and I will pray for those who have had the same heartbreaking experience as myself.
-- By jenna16 | Reply | (3) replies | Private Message me
October 7th
2007
5:50 PM
I lterally just starting taking Yasmin today. I used to take Tri-phasil, but found it just wasn't keeping my mood in check over the last 6 months, not to mention I was suddenly getting 2 periods a month. So, I stopped taking the pill for a month, and after seeiong ads for YAZ ended up with Yasmine after visiting my Dr.
My questions for the ladies with symptoms of anxiety and mood swings: Did you not have these symptoms before starting the pill? If so, are you saying that Yasmin made them worse?
Also, I would be curious to find lout what BC pills you NOW use, and how the hormone dose compares to Yasmin. The Tri-phasil I used to take was stronger than Yasmin. If I begin to feel any side effects using Yasmin, I will have to assume that I just need something stronger and will begin with Tri Phasil again.
September 30th
2007
6:31 PM
Topamax has made my life a living hell for the last few weeks. I only started it three or four weeks ago but as of a week and a half ago (when I reached the dosage of 75/mg/day), I started getting anxiety attacks that lasted all day long. I've experienced mild anxiety before and this is nothing like it. I'm in college, and my parents finally got sick of the hours-long crying phone calls and drove in last night from 10 hours away to get me. Under this medicine, I get confused and have too much memory loss to take myself to the doctor. I'd rather have the daily pain of the headaches than the constant panic from this medicine. Did I mention that I weigh only a little more than 100 lbs before I started and I've been steadily losing weight from the alternating lack of appetite, nausea, and diarrhea?
-- By saranordmann | Reply | Private Message me
January 9th
2007
3:00 AM
hi guest 36018.
i have no idea how we would go about gathering evidence about this pill and bringing a law suit. i live in the uk so it is not something we do often.
you mentioned in your post about ear trouble. i have had problems with my right ear since august of 2005 (6 months after i started on yasmin) i have a constantly stuffy ear that popps about 10 mins after i get up and stays that way for 4-6 hours. feels like when you are on a plane and your ears pop and you cannot get them to clear again no matter what you do! one doc said i had a perforated ear drum. no treatment that i have been given so far has worked for me. i have been off yasmin for 8 months now so i am hoping that it will go soon! I found it interesting that you say your gyn gave you this pill for anxiety... i have read a few posts both on this site and on others that women who have pre-existing anxiety seem to do better mentally and if they also had pre-existing pms it seems to help with that too. (of course that is not always the case,some women do much much worse) i had no pre-existing anxiety or pms apart from the usual get a bit grumpy before my period that many women suffer from! when i was on yasmin i developed pretty much every symptom of pmsa (pmsa is anxiety lead pms) and a few besides but they were magnified a hundred times and i suffered them all day everyday not just pre-menstrually. instead of tender breasts i had agonising,couldn't bear to even be touched or hug my kids breasts, instead of mild water retention my legs and ankles felt like they wobbled when i walked,instead of feeling a little low i thought my world was going to end,and the mild anxiety felt like i was in a state of perpetual terror! If you look up the symptoms of pms i am sure you will find all your symptoms but yasmin just makes them really really bad.
It seems like if you already have symptoms when you start yasmin it can help and if you don't it will give you symptoms, it obviously has a major impact on the hormone balance,if you are already suffering before then maybe your hormones are out of whack and yasmin balances them and if you are hormonally stable when you take it maybe it throws you out of balance,i'm afraid it is all if's but's and maybe's and as most doctors either do not know or don't want to believe that our symptoms are caused by yasmin then we are not likely to find out why or how this happens.
sorry if there are loads of spelling mistakes in this post but i am pre-menstrual and my brain just turns to mush and i cannot concentrate,i lose my line of thought!!!!
best wishes to you all ladies.
sarah.
p.s silke, you asked about leg/foot cramps when standing still. i get that if i am on my step excerciser or if i am standing in one place for too long,my feet also tingle and go numb.
-- By flowerbabies | Reply | Private Message me
November 10th
2006
6:04 AM
hi murph 70,
not sure if this site will help you work out your results,i looked my tsh level up on here.
www.pinelandpress.com/faq/hormonelevels
you could give it a look. i am also having problems with my cycle. i have started to ovulate again (thank goodness!) my periods are still coming between 33 - 38 days instead of my old pre yasmin cycle that was 28 days on the dot. i have some periods that are really heavy and some that are so light they are more like spotting. i suffer pms (with mild anxiety) about 12 days before my period starts until 2 days after bleeding starts. i get an outbreak of acne about 10 days before my period and savage backache just before my period too! all are symptoms of pms,i never had any of these symptoms before i went on yasmin except for the odd monthly spot on my chin! i really wish i had not messed with my perfectly normal cycle but i was totally ignorant to the fact that any of these awful things could happen just from taking a pill,i was told it would improve my life not wreck it!
sorry for the rant murph 70 but i find once i start on the subject i can't stop! hope the site i suggested is of some help.
silke.
my heart goes out to you...... remember you are strong and you will beat this! please feel better soon!
May 12th
2006
4:44 PM
Been on Zoloft for 7 years - from 100mg and now 200mg daily for depression and mild anxiety. I have terrible headaches when I miss two days or more (my fault, of course!). I also found that my depression and mood swings were TERRIBLE when I first tried birth control pills (as someone else mentioned). However, different BC pills will have different effects and I have now found that Lo-Ovral is a a good match for me (after my Dr increased my Zoloft daily intake by 50 mg).
-- By smith384 | Reply | Private Message me
September 20th
2005
2:06 PM
I took Yasmin for 3 weeks. I felt so nauseous I struggled to eat and lost 10lb in weight. I got headaches, dizziness and some mild anxiety. I can totally relate to the lady with the food cravings. I could only eat certain things and just the thought of a lot of foods made me feel sick immediately. I have now been off Yasmin for a month and have only just started to feel better - I am eating more normally now (although not gaining weight) and find that I just feel a bit weird from time to time. Feeling ill for this relatively short amount of time has been a nightmare and I feel for all you ladies who are suffering for much longer. I have now come off birth control completely after 17 years of taking various pills. I'd rather use other methods than go through Yasmin again or risk taking anything else that could cause the same effects.
Rachel, UK
-- By rachoz147 | Reply | Private Message me
June 14th
2005
12:11 PM
I have been on prednisone for twelve days, due to my Inflammatory Arthritis. I started on 15 mg of pred for 4 days, then 10 mg, and down to 5 mg. Today is my last day of prednisone, although my doctor told me that I could continue to take 5 mg, if I'd like. I have had mild anxiety and diarrhea, which I think is caused by the anxiety. My joints have felt great and the inflammation has gone down. The only drawback that I am had has been the anxiety and headaches. I'd take it again, but I do not like the anxious feeling that I am experiencing.
-- By kristen | Reply | Private Message me
September 30th
2004
5:56 PM
I have been on Tegretol since 1999, 800mg daily (2 pills, twice a day, with food) to treat two grand mal and several petit mal seizures I had throughout that year. Since that time I've definitely noticed drowsiness initially, a lack of mental focus, loss of both long and short term memory (I can't remember a thing any more, so I have to write everything down within two minutes otherwise it's just gone) as well as occasional spasms of my right eyelid and calves. I get mild anxiety attacks when I forget to take my meds, so I'm afraid to totally go off it or reduce the dosage myself.
Good luck to everyone else dealing with seizure disorder / epilepsy.
- RQ, Vancouver, Canada
-- By rishadq | Reply | Private Message me
June 26th
2003
8:39 PM
I used to be on Paxil. I was prescribed this drug "to simply smooth life's edges." I didn't always feel like I was in a good mood, was midly depressed and suffered with mild anxiety attacks. Had feelings of being a little lost and confused and the littlest things would upset me to the point of tears. I was over sensitive about almost everything. Paxil was the best thing that ever happened to me during that period of time. It did exactly with the doctor said it would do. It is a mild antidepressant that will just take the "edge" off. I was taking 25mg CR and I only took them for a month and a half until I felt better. I weaned myself off with less and less dosage day by day. A few months later I started having similar feelings like before and took another 1-month session. Fixed me again, just like before. Took me through a stressful time and eased my feelings of anxiety until I was able to control things and pull through my mild depression. It's been about a year and a half and I haven't needed Paxil again.
I've read all of these postings and I was concerned by all the bad side effects. I had heard in advance about the decreased sex drive thing but I was willing to deal with it. Turns out the drug increased my sex drive. I just felt better about everything. Things that would normally bother me didn't. Anxiety attacks with scared feelings and shortness of breath were just non-existent. Never had any trouble sleeping and my mood swings were totally in check. Actually, even though I been off the Paxil for about 1.5 years, I feel like I learned how to control my mood swings and some anger. I am a much more rational person today than I was then. People talk about side effects such as lucid dreams, the occasional lose of touch with reality and weird feelings of not been all there. Are these really bad things? I am surprised this wonder drug is not illegal. I thought it was great.
-- By leemweck | Reply | Private Message me
June 24th
2003
8:08 PM
I used to be on Paxil. I was prescribed this drug "to simply smooth life's edges." I didn't always feel like I was in a good mood, was midly depressed and sufferred with mild anxiety attacks. Had feelings of being a little lost and confused and the littlest things would upset me to the point of tears. I was over sensitive about almost everything. Paxil was the best thing that ever happened to me during that period of time. It did exactly with the doctor said it would do. It is a mild antidepressant that will just take the "edge" off. I was taking 25mg CR and I only took them for a month and a half until I felt better. I weined myself off with less and less dosage day by day. A few months later I started having similar feelings like before and took another 1 month session. Fixed me again, just like before. Took me through a stressful time and eased my feeelings of anxiety until I was able to control things and pull through my mild depression. It's been about a year and a half and I haven't needed Paxil again.
I've read all of these postings and I was concerned by all the bad side effects. I had heard in advance about the decreased sex drive thing but I was willing to deal with it. Turns out the drug increased my sex drive. I just felt better about everthing. Things that would normally bother me, didn't. Anxiety attacks with scared feelings and shortness of breath were just non-existent. Never had any trouble sleeping and my moodswings were totallly in check. Actually, even though I been off the Paxil for about 1.5 years, I feel like I learned how to control my mood swings and some anger. I am a much more rational person today than I was then. People talk about side effects such as lucid dreams, the occassional lose of touch with reality and wierd feelings of not being all there. Are these really bad things? I'm surprised that it is still legal. I thought it was great.
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November 13th
2009
11:40 PM
WOW! I have NEVER had a ride quite like this trip. LSD and shrooms ain't got nothin' on these awful little buggers! At least when you ingest a hallucinogen intentionally, you are, or should be, somewhat mentally and physically prepared for the ensuing consequences. I really wasn't down with wigging out on antibiotics while sick as hell. I have mild anxiety occasionally, so I picked up on what was happening physically pretty quick. Until I did tho, I was a bit freaked out. Thought I'd write this for those of you who haven't had any experience with the physical/mental "symptoms" that can occur with this drug. Strange thoughts, detachment from physicality and reality, paranoia, anxiety...all of which can/will trigger actual physical side effects like rapid heartbeat, rising blood pressure, headache/migraine, vision distortion, ringing ears, extreme nausea/stomach ache, insomnia, night terrors/strange dreams, etc. Just keep these things in mind...it's not your imagination. It is the drug. It WILL pass, but it may take awhile. Just ride it out and don't let it get you. You'll be okay, but for me it took about 15 hours after only 3 days of dosing. I feel lucky that I'm so intune with my mind/body. It was a bit scary, but it's just knowing the possible side effects are real and not in your head that will make the biggest difference. This doesn't happen to everyone, and I certainly never thought it would happen to me, but I would rather be deathly I'll than deal with that mind screw and physical pain. Ugh. Terrible drug. I never take conventional meds, and this is why. May the force be with you!
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