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My doctor put me on Topamax for ADD.... I am a 37 year old woman and I'm taking 100mg's of it. 50mg at night and 50 in the AM and have very quickly found that I have had memory LOSS very quickly. I have been on the med for 1 1/2 months. My vision is also getting worse and this medication is not helping me with the ADD. I am a Lab Rat to them... I am going OFF this medication. If anyone out there reads this... please do all the research you can. The side effects are not worth it! Today is Mother's Day and after 37 years.... I called her and could not remember her little sweet nic-name she has been calling me since I was born. My heart sank. IMHO.... This medication is very bad.

What drives me crazy are the things that involve my brain. This includes speeking, thinking and comprehending, and memory loss. When I go to talk, instead of saying "vinegar" it comes out "vigenar" for example. People have to tell me things over and over and most of the times very slowly until I have it correctly in my head. It frustrates me so. However, the memory loss is the worst. It as if I have become an amnesia patient. I am currently dating a man that I dated a few years ago. We go places that I think we have never been before. So I start telling him about the place and what I like about the place and I go on and on and then it dawns on me that we have been there together and I feel like an idiot and become so embarrased. Or I start to say something like, "Did we ever go to such and such a place?" and he might say, "No, why?" Now, in my head I'm thinking it was him and actually it might have been another guy, but I can't remember so I have to cover for myself so I say, "Oh, it must have been a dream I had of you." Now the doctor who checked me in for my last hospitalization said, "Well, if you can stand the confusion for a little bit longer and lose some more weight, why not stay on it?" I don't know if it's worth it....