Poor husband symptoms and conditions

this thing is a monster that has taken over my body! i had mirena put in in January of 09 after having my second baby....thought it was a great and easy solution to the birth control issue...boy was i wrong. since i have had it i have been a mess...bleeding all the time, headaches, weight gain, loss of hair, shortness of breath, nervousness, constipation, inability to concentrate and BAD irritability. my poor husband is going to have a nervous breakdown. i am glad to hear that i'm not the only one though. i was a little worried that i was going CRAZY! i made an appointment today to have mine removed immediately!!! i'm going back to the good ole pills...forget this foreign object in my body! wouldn't recommend this to ANYONE!

Well, I had Mirena put in in March and the insertion was fine, I had to go back to get the strings cut because my husband was being "poked", but I felt fine UNTIL a month or so ago, I feel dizzy almost to the point of blacking out, nauseous, but not actually throwing up, and very tired, now i do have a 6mo old and a 3 yr old, but they both sleep through the night, and so do I, but i'm just exhausted all the time now. Also, I can't seem to control my emotions, my poor husband gets the brunt of it. I have an appointment with the doc to discuss my options. Hopefully I can get it removed and back on the patch which worked good for me. I wanted Mirena because I like the idea of no periods, which IS really cool. But the exhaustion and nausea just arent worth it if I can't be a good mom and wife.

Hi! I had mirena put it about 2 months ago. Since then, I have had the WORST sharp cramps randomly out of nowhere. And my poor husband has to put up with me snapping at him because the pain is so bad. I usually have to double over when they happen. Also, I have gained 15 pounds in these two months. I am 155 pounds now, so 15 pounds is a huge difference to me. The only good things is it makes my boobs bigger too. I am looking to get it remover, although it does make my periods lighter which I like, but they are so random, it's almost like I am constantly spotting.

I got the Mirena inserted 6 weeks after the birth of my 2ND child. I've had it for 3 years now and I can't begin to explain the drastic changes that my body has been through. Depression, Hair Loss, Mood Swings, Back aches, No sex drive, Headaches, Blurred Vision with Nausea, Weight Gain. I can't take this anymore! It is actually stabbing my poor husband when we do have sex. I've been to the gyn about these symptoms before. I felt that he kinda dismissed me. He did ask me if I wanted it out, but at the last minute I changed my mind out of fear of getting pregnant again. I am getting this thing out of me Monday May 18Th! I've had enough! I want the happy, healthy weight, sexually charged woman that I was before this IUD back.

I haven't really had any adverse side effects in particular from my mirena. The insertion of my Mirena was a nightmare though. I have had three children, all of them via c-section and my doctor neglected to inform me about the insertion process in general. That it would be much easier for her to insert it had I had my children vaginally.
I went to my doctor and they got ready to insert my mirena and realized that the tool that they used to open my cervix and insert it was too short since my cervix is apparently very far up. So they had to go fetch a longer set of scary looking tongs. They then proceeded with the insertion which hurt so badly that I started crying. My poor husband had to hold me down on the table it hurt so bad. Then, after all was said and done she decided to ask me if I had ever dilated and I told her only with my first daughter and only to 7 1/2 cm. She then decided to tell me that was why the insertion was so difficult. That was, by far, the worst pain I have ever been in I believe.
After the insertion I had some pretty bad cramps and bled for a day or two but I haven't experienced anything other than that. Well, I do occasionally have a kind of sharp pain in my abdomen. I suppose it might be my uterus but hopefully it's all okay because I SERIOUSLY DREAD getting this mirena out. They will have to put me to sleep or give me a bunch of pills in order to get it out. I don't want to go through that pain again

i have had the mirena for 12 months and my partner says he is able to feel it during sex he says it feels like a sharp stabbing pain so went to the doc and he says its not possible for him to feel it but he says he can and it is really killing our sex life because every time we have sex we have to stop because it is painful for him and for me doc didn't tell me that this would happen, scared about getting it taken out cause it killed getting it put in i thought it would be a hassle free contraception but it has turned out to be a nightmare!!!! has anyone else experienced this?

Hello! Im 26 years old and just had the mirena put in a month ago. my main reason getting it was because i was no longer going to have health insurance and didnt want to pay for pills or anything. Im not going to lie, it hurt soooooo bad to get it put in. I almost kicked the doctor. i haven't had any children so my cervix was not welcoming to the mirena at all. i had it put in on a Friday by Sunday i was running around the house cleaning and fine, I have been married 3 years and have never had a sex drive (my poor husband), I don't know if its the mirena but now i am always sexually ready to go! I actually want to have sex :) husbands sooo happy. i dont have to remember the pill which is great. i do sometimes get some cramping but nothing to stop me. i am still able to go running and do everything i could before. so far i am loving having the mirena!!! IT"S AWESOME!!!

To make a long story short (I think). Taking Celexa (20 mg) for more than 4 years definitely caused decreased sexual sensations (numbed nerves), though it did change my life. In October Switched to Wellbutrin XL. Withdrawal from Celexa was not easy but Libido is definitely back. Problem is I am angry ALL the time at my husband. In fact, I've been angry almost from the get go from switching to Wellbutrin. I have also been puzzled by slight hair loss in the back of my head at the hairline. I have of late experienced abrupt halts in thought processes and my periods, though I am 45, have suddenly become irregularly. Frankly I didn't realize that Wellbutrin could likely be the cause of these symptoms until I read some of these posts. I really would like to wean off of this drug (was prescribed 300 mg but have taken 150 mg due to feelings of being 'wigged' out on higher dosage - did up the ante for just over a week to see if that would help but didn't seem to matter)...Nevertheless, I really think Wellbutrin is causing me to feel deep resentment toward my husband. This is not a usual emotion for me and it pretty well started immediately after I began taking Wellbutrin. I really could use your opinions(s). IS THE WELLBUTRIN causing the anger??? Did the Celexa simply MASK existing problems??? Is it a combination of both. Is this depression again or am I in the process of slipping back in??? (anger was not a previous symptom of my depression though black clouds, low esteem, doom and gloom and sadness were) Also, aside from anger and sheer resentment, I feel as if I'm spinning my wheels, that I'm in rut and that no matter how I try to move forward, I can't - I really feel lost and am so angry at my husband and see him in such a different way that it is almost to the point of being ridiculous). THANK-YOU so much for your replies.

I too am one of the many women who wishes that she would have seen this site before getting the Mirena! I thought that I was dealing with some sort of postpartum depression. My MD had me convinced that NONE of the side affects that I am experiencing are Mirena related. Now after reading all of this I know I'm not the only one!
I had my son May of this year. Before I had him my MD had talked to me about the choice of a birth control after birth. Well I knew very little of Mirena, but once my MD had explained it I was SOLD! No kids for 5 years (not looking to have my next one until about that time) and "little to no side effects." What could have been better. He was singing music to my ears about Mirena. 6 weeks after my c-section I went in for my follow up and was given the ok to get it. I was told that the procedure shouldn't hurt. Liars. I can't believe that they don't numb you for that. Hello.....YOU ARE MANUALLY DIALATING MY CERVIX!!! I bled that day and afterwards and the cramps were out of this world! The doctor just told me to take the left over vicodin I had from my c-section. Two weeks later the craps were still in full throttle!
A few weeks after the insertion I was starting to to become this other person. Mood swings and a total bitch came out of me. My poor husband got the bad end of it. He thought it was postpartum and just let it be. A while after that I began to feel bloated and I started to gain the pregnancy weight back. I wasn't eating any different so I know something was not right. Fatigue was another effect that set in around the same time. I thought it was just trying to adjust with a baby in the house but here it is 5 months later and I have no energy. I promised myself I was going to start going to the gym and I can't muscle up the energy to do that. I'm wiped out by the day's end with taking care of the baby and getting simple house chores done. Also my back hurts ALL THE TIME. I thought that it might have been from the epidural but now I think not. I've always had some breakouts but not that bad. Now I break out all the time, and they are bad. Not to mention that I'm getting breakouts all over my neck, chest and back. I've never broken out like this on my body before. Not even when I was pregnant. Even more recent is my hair that is starting to come out in alarming clumps. I can get a good fistfull in the shower when I'm ringing my hair out, another good one when I blow dry it, and then just randomly during the day. For the most part I've always had thick hair and I'm noticing a DRAMATIC difference!
I've made several calls to my md about the cramps and the things I'm going through and he asked me to just give it a few more months. I'm going to call ASAP and demand that this thing comes out!

I have been on Remeron for last month, the first week was wonderful. I fell asleep for 12hrs the first night. The following nights of the first week were great, I slept like I hadn't in years. The third week it started to all crash down on me. I couldn't sleep, my legs felt like I had bugs crawling all over me, I kept my poor husband up all night, getting up and down, kicking and turning all night. I then started realizing I was angry over nothing. My mother is very sick and will not get better (one of the reason I started Remeron in the first place) and I am noticing I am irritated if she needs something or just calls to say hello. I don't want to talk to anyone, not my friends, husband or even my children. My son is a diabetic and I told my doctor if I took any medicine it couldn't just knock me out, I had to be coherent enough to take care of his needs. The medicine didn't bother me the first couple weeks. The third week, I would forget how much insulin to give him, and that is a scary feeling if you gave your son the right amount of medicine. I would think after I gave him his medicine, did I give him the right amount or am I going to make him go into shock. I also have gained weight, I have never liked sweets and that is all I think about. I go to dr. this week, hopefully she will find a new med that won't make me forget everything, want to be such a hag to everyone, and help with those crazy leg tingles. I was on 15 mgs to start out on, I even took an extra one the other night because of the leg tingles, and it made it worse. So I took an over the counter sleep aid and I finally fell asleep at 4:00 in morning. I am so glad I found the site, I thought I was losing my mind. Thank You to all of you, you have helped me tremendously.

I had mirena since 08/08 and I HATE it. I have had nothing but MAJOR mood swings, hot flashes, dizziness, insomnia, depression. I have put my husband and 3 and 2 year old's thru he** just so we don't have any more children right now. It is so not worth it. The pain during insertion was worse than my 35 hours of hard back labor. I had to be dilated 2 times to have it inserted, I was shaking, covered in sweat and sobbing by the time it was over. My poor husband just looked at me and said he was so sorry I went thru that. I am calling my doctor 1st thing in the morning and demanding that it be removed immediately. I am at the point that if I could find the strings I would pull it out myself. Don't get one, it is not worth it. I guess know on from the FDA had to get on inserted!

This is my first month trying the Nuvaring. My Dr. gave me a sample to try. Well, so far the side effects haven't been too horrible. I do notice I am a little sensitive but that could just be me. However, I have been on a nightmare of some modified "period" all month! I started my period July 10th and that same day I put the ring in. Normally my period last about 4-5 days. After 5 days I was spotting lightly which changed to regular period flow, then spotting again. Now I have some weird sticky brown discharge which has a slight odor. SO embarrassing! I don't even want my husband to go in the bathroom right after I use it because a slight odor lingers in the air. Sex has been uncomfortable for me. Not because it hurts but because it's so messy with me bleeding and this weird discharge. My poor husband. I really think that when I take it out, it's going to STAY out because I can not deal with these month long crazy periods all the time. Can anyone recommend any other good BC? I haven't been on it for awhile because I had a baby 16 months ago. Thanks.

I am 35, and my doctor recently prescribed me Loestrin 24 Fe to regulate my periods. (I was bleeding/spotting for almost 2 weeks out of the month) and to help with my PMDD. Well, I just finished my 2nd week of pills, and let me tell you, I feel horrible. I'm bloated, have gained 3 lbs(I'm on Weight Watchers, plus exercise 4 times a week) , have insomnia (I've never had a problem sleeping) I am extremely moody (just ask my poor husband and kids) and have more pimples now than I did as a teenager. Since I"m not taking the pill as a form of birth control, (my husband has had a vasectomy), as of tomorrow, I am finished taking this pill. I would rather deal w/2 weeks of bleeding, than the the emotional/physical roller coaster I have been on for the past 2 weeks. Just my opinion..hope this helps someone!

HEY..WELL HERE IS MY EXPERIENCE...I STARTED LOESTRIN 24 ALMOST 3 MONTHS AGO..I HAVEN'T GOTTEN ONE PERIOD YET...I SPOTTED THE FIRST WEEK I WAS ON IT, BUT OTHER THEN THAT IT NOTHING. I TOOK 2 PREGO TESTS BOTH SAY NEGATIVE...I AM SO MOODY, MY POOR HUSBAND DOESN'T KNOW WHAT TO DO WITH ME..THE HEADACHES ARE SO UNBEARABLE I DON'T KNOW WHAT TO DO. I AM ACTUALLY GOING TO MY DOCTOR ON WEDNESDAY TO BE SWITCHED AND HE ALSO WANTS TO MAKE SURE I AM NOT PREGNANT. NO HAIR LOSS FOR ME OR WEIGHT GAIN YET, BUT I GUESS ANYTHING COULD HAPPEN IF I STAY ON IT, I JUST CAN NOT STAND WONDERING IF I AM PREGNANT EVERY MONTH. I AM SO HAPPY I FOUND THIS SIGHT, I AM GOING TO ASK MY DOCTOR A LOT OF QUESTIONS ABOUT LOESTRIN AND HOW MANY PEOPLE HE HAS HAD COME IN WITH PROBLEMS WITH THIS PILL..DOES ANYONE HAVE SUGGESTIONS ON WHAT PILL TO ACTUALLY SWITCH TO?

Oh boy! Side effects to coming off this med! UGH! I am going through them as I type! It is the most horrible way to feel! I have tried in the past on several occasions to get off this med...but never had accomplished the feat as it is nearly impossible to get through the day! At my highest dose I was taking 300 mg daily... the Dr. weaned me down slowly and now am trying just to get off of 75mg daily! I am on day 4 without Effexor xr... needless to say the side effects are getting worse instead of better!
I am experiencing: dizziness, tingly feeling in my whole body, night sweats, almost hard to do anything because I feel as if I have the flu!!!!
To anyone who is given the choice to take this med...DON"T!! Getting off of it is the hardest thing to do! In hindsight... when I am on it fully it is a great med. It helped me regain my life without panic, anxiety, depression etc... Idk... people don't understand the hell we go through with all these meds. My poor husband can't take my complaining anymore! Although either can I! I feel like going and getting a pill right now just to feel better!

I'm 36 yrs old. I went on Yaz 2 full months ago not for birth control purposes, but to control heavy bleeding, my hair falling out (not hair loss, it grows back), memory problems, period-related fatigue, and extreme moodiness and irritability. So far, I haven't had any negative emotional side effects that others of you have. In fact, it seems to have helped my moodiness and irritability slightly. However, I have experienced two side effects that I cannot tolerate if it doesn't "work itself out" (my doc's words) by the end of my 3rd pack of Yaz. From the first week that I was on Yaz, my libido has been M.I.A. Not only has my sex drive disappeared, but I have found thoughts of sex repulsing me. :( I apologize if this next statement is "TMI" (too much info) but it IS a side effect of this pill that I have experienced! When hubby and I are intimate, I find it IMPOSSIBLE to climax, no matter how hard we try and how "into it" I am. This is not normal for me. This side effect is very disturbing for my husband, who is now insisting that I stop taking the Yaz. I am giving this pill one more month to redeem itself, otherwise it will never set pretty little packet in my house again.

I have wasted a year and a half of my life on NuvaRing. I just feel so stupid not to realize this sooner. My hands were always cold, go white and painful. My back went numb when sitting in a chair. My happy go lucky attitude turned into a depressed and sad life. Sleep...what was that. My poor husband had been shut out. No sex drive-at all-nothing. I felt so numb. Stop crying and pay attention to your symptoms!!

Mirena Round 2: On Feb, 21, 2008, one week ago, I had my 5 year old Mirena removed and a new one inserted. I was 6 weeks post-partum when I had the first Mirena inserted. I have no recollection of any adverse side-effects and my body was still recalibrating after the birth of my 2nd child, a daughter. I am 1 week into my new device and feel very weird. I started crying last night for no reason at all and have felt horribly bloated since day 2. My belly literally feels like a pregnant bloated belly. The cramping has been on and off everyday since insertion. And now that I think about it, I had a headache a few days afterward for a very long time.
Looking back over the last 5 years, however, I have battled acne, which I just attributed to "hormonal outbreaks". It never occurred to me that it could possibly have been a side effect to my Mirena. My poor husband has been so sweet and understanding, but today we had the talk. How long would we allow before having it removed? $500+ down the toilet. What a shame. Who knew that merely replacing the device I had already spent 5 years with prior would/could bring on a whole new set of side-effects?

I have been taking Yaz for several months now and loved it; however, suddenly I am this crazy person. I cry at nothing, I'm moody, but the strangest thing is I'm very very angry. I will be fine and all of a sudden this angry RAGE comes over me. It's horrible!!! My poor husband and coworkers. Also I recently saw a doctor because I have had horrible nausea, and he prescribed Prevacid. I wonder if this is a side effect of Yaz?? I'm seeing my OBGYN next week to discuss. I'm thinking I should just stop the pill all together for the next few months and see how I feel.

OMG! I have been on NR for 3 1/2 yrs. I too thought is was the best thing since sliced bread ;) That is until now. I am 29, married 4 years, with a 4 yr old son. I have NO sex drive. I mean ZERO. My poor husband goes MONTHS without sex. When we do, I am so dry that it isn't fun for either of us. This was not how things used to be. I am also tired and cranky all the time. My mood swings are terrible. I do have hypothyroid, and since all of these are common symptoms, I went to have my blood checked. Of couse, my thryoid came back fine. I thought I was loosing my mind. Thank god for this sight. After reading some of the withdrawl effects, I am worried. Any suggestions on a new BC?

I am just finishing my 2nd month of this pill. I have been on numerous BC’s since the age 17. I have had some good ones and some bad ones but usually the side effects that caused me to go off the pills was cramping and/or spotting. Recently I had been on Yasmin (not Yaz) for about 4 years. In the past year I had gotten over 10 yeast infections due to the Yasmin. Prior to this past year though, Yasmin was great. Anyway, my GYN switched me to this and I am on my second month. The first month it was like I had my period everyday for the month. I truly don’t know when I actually had my period. My poor husband, I kept telling him “I think I have my period again.” Then when I thought it was gone b/c nothing for a few days, it would come back. But I decided to stick it out. I called my GYN and the nurse said “try to stick it out for three months, it usually gets better.” So I am. And this month, its starting again. I am suppose to get my period in a week but 3 days ago I started bleeding again. But I also have been feeling very lethargic, depressed and I have gained weight. I actually did not even think it was because of the change in the pill until I came across this website today. But I truly have many of the same symptoms you all are talking about. Mostly, the tiredness, weight gain and depressed feeling. But I have others. I have NEVER been over 135lbs in my life now I am at 140 and I haven’t changed a thing. I certainly could exercise more, but that hasn’t changed. In fact, I have been trying to eat LESS to lose this weight but I keep going up. Now I am thinking it may be due to this pill. I am glad I came across this website. I am going to go to my GYN before the next month and say I want off. The one good thing is… I haven’t had a yeast infection since being on this pill! I was getting two a month at times! I am truly glad I came across this website or else I would have never known. Thank you all for sharing your comments about your experiences (both positive and negative).

I had the Mirena put in in March of 2007, shortly after my 6 week post partum check up. I have always had terrible side effects from bc pills and I am allergic to latex (....condoms,etc), besides I'm married and it's so weird and inconvenient for a married couple, with 3 children and LITTLE time for sex to use condoms!! With all this in mind, my obgyn convinced me to consider this product. I did my homework as instructed and all research came back with the same answers: NO DOCUMENTED side effects. My biggest concerns were weight gain/mood, aggression. I was assured this would not happen to me again. The insertion was super easy; didn't feel a thing, then a few days later it felt as though I was in labor all over again and this lasted for about a week. I continued to bleed for approx 5 months, and since i have had to wear a panty liner everyday for discharge/spotting. After reading this website, I've come to realize that all the "strange" things happening to me are apparently not so strange/rare: the terrible headaches, leg cramps, SEVERE acne that scars (everyday of the month, currently using proactiv for that, but not helping one bit! and i've never had a zit before in my life), I'm 27 and feel as though i have the joints of an 85 year-old...my knees and hips ache 24-7. Yes, the mood swings are there too. My poor husband and children....i'm happy one sec, then biting off heads the next. I have also had severe constipation, having to do regular enemas to have bm's. Worst of all, after busting my butt to lose 25lbs of baby wgt 3 wks after giving birth, I started gaining it back 3 weeks later after having Mirena inserted. I have gained approx 38 lbs since the end of March. I have completely changed my diet to..sugar busters, 1200 calories a day, exercise 5 days a week,excessive amount of fiber and water, and i'm even taking ephedra/hoodia pills 3x a day. I can honesly say I have not lost 1 pound, not 1. We are not sure if we want anymore children, but if so not for a few years, but I cannot endure the suffering anymore, and neither can my family. please reconsider having the Mirena put in your body! So many women post complaints, why is there NO documented side effects with this device with the manufacturer and physicians who recommend it?????

I am 26 yrs old and I have been on Nuvaring for about 3-3 1/2 years. I thought this was the greatest thing not having to remember the pill and the short light periods. I have always sworn by this BC! I have been having side effects I never thought came from the ring until now. I have read a lot of the side effects others are having and I think my lack of sexual desire for the past 1 1/2 yrs. MAY be due to Nuvaring and not my getting married 2 yrs. ago. (lol) I also have headaches often, not bad ones but enough to carry Tylenol in my purse. And another is dryness before intercourse, that I never had a problem with 2 yrs. ago. I never put two and two together until I racked my brain and wondered why I struggled so badly with my lack of sexual desire. I could care less if I have sex or not! That just wasn't me 2 yrs ago! I just couldn't figure out what had changed, going back on any medicines I had taken the past 2 yrs., the Nuvaring is the only thing that was constant. I have a Dr. Appt today and I am going to discontinue use of the ring and see if the side effects subside like they have for some others. I will post again when I have an update. Please let me know if anyone else is having the side effects more than a year after using the Nuvaring!! Thanks!

Hi, I have come across many websites after promising my husband of 13 years that I would look into the side effects of my IUD. I had NO idea! I thought it was only me! Reading all of this almost made me cry to know that there might NOT be anything wrong with me and just by removing this IUD that I can get back to a normal life! I have had it for almost 2 years, and the last year has been an emotional rollercoaster of all kinds of events! The only good thing that I can say came out of it is that I didn't get pregnant in the last 2 years (have 4 boys already) and I haven't had to deal with a "real" period in about that same amount of time! HOWEVER...I HAVE HAD TO DEAL WITH OTHER THINGS, THAT I DIDN'T EVEN KNOW EXISTED WITH THE USE OF THIS DEVICE!!! Including, but not limited to, SEVERE fatigue, cramps, SEVERE acne (never even had as a teen!), headaches, SEVERE mood changes and swings (as by the pleas of my husband), loss of of the hair on my head, and regrowth of hair in places women shouldn't have hair, i.e. breasts and chin, vaginal dryness, loss of libido (my poor husband), SEVERE depression and worthlessness, and those are just the ones that I have been able to see myself now. I am sure if they were pointed out to my by a loved one or friend I could probably link that with the IUD also. MEN~ do NOT let or make your wife get this...she could NOT be the same person you thought you knew and it is a rough and rocky ride! WOMEN~ I beg you, do NOT get this, it is horrible! Why take the chance? I have hated myself, my husband, my kids, my extended family and friends and couldn't figure out what was "wrong" with me. I am getting mine out Monday Sept. 24, 2007, and hopefully I can get back to the life I had known before these last 2 years of insanity took over. Good luck all and GOD Bless!

I decided to get Mirena after the birth of my second son. I seemed like such a great idea. I had it put in last Sept. My doctor is very good and warned me about some things that might happen after it was inserted. What I didn't expect was just how bad I bled after getting it. I know it sounds like I'm exaggerating, but there was a point where I was running to the bathroom every 15 minutes to change. It was horrible, but my doctor assured me that everything was normal and I should see some improvement within the next few months. Including the heavy bleading, I bled for about a month and a half straight. About a month of that was the annoying spotting. Since then, I haven't had a period, which I love...the only thing I love about it. The past year has been rough, but I never associated it with Mirena until now. I was starting to lose my baby weight but now I weigh about 5 lbs more than I did just after giving birth. My stomach looks bigger than my sister's and she's almost 7 months pregnant. I was put on anti depressants, but associated that with post partum depression...now I'm not sure what caused it. My husband and I have been fighting more and we even considered spitting up. I'm just not ME and he has even said it. I have acne like a teenager, weight gain (no matter what I do), very low sex drive, BLOATING, cramps, my memory is pretty much non existent, nausea, horrible sleep pattern which causes extreme tiredness all the time, sore body, constant discharge, and blurred vision. I've actually taken pregnancy tests because I felt worse than when I was pregnant. I've talked to my husband about the Mirena and wanting to get it out, but he's just worried that I'll get pregnant again if I get it out. He doesn't realize how bad I really feel cuz I'm not telling him. We decided that our marriage is worth saving so I'm trying to do my part by not getting mad at him for every little thing and not complaining about how awful I feel. He just started a new job, too, so insurance hasn't started at the new place and his old place of employment has already stopped it through them. I can't pay for a regular doctor's visit without insurance, so I guess I'm stuck with it for now. Sorry for babbling, I just don't have anyone to talk to, so once I start, I just keep going.