Population control symptoms and conditions

I have been taking Loestrin24 for about 3 years. Starting out I was fine, because I was younger, and having almost no period was awesome. Then I started to get older, and now I am married. My husband and I are talking about having children very soon. I want to stop taking the pill, because I am depressed, gaining weight, bitchy, my contacts aren't working with my eyes anymore, and I am always nauseous. But if I stop taking the pill, my husband and I won't be able to control when we have our baby...If we know what these pills do to our body, the doctors MUST know. Why are we told to take this crap, and why do we? Population control much?

I went on Loestrin 24 about 3 weeks ago and have kept telling myself to wait it out. From the first day I started to feel depressed but I stayed with it. Ive started to fight with my boyfriend of 2 yrs now and questioning our relationship more than ever. I have NO sex drive what so ever, Im constantly depressed, I have anxiety and my mind is constantly all over the place with weird thoughts that I have NEVER had before. Ive already started to gain an uncomfortable weight. I am 5'4 and 115 pounds, very active, and I eat very well so the weight gain does not make sense to me. The only plus is that my boobs are getting bigger...but feeling like total crap and hating everyday of my life isn't worth it. Im debating going off of this pill but keep telling myself to ride it out. I was on the shot for about 5 yrs and went off of that about 2 yrs ago. I started back on this pill because I get really bad PMS...the shot made me gain about 20 pounds. So I dont want to go back on that. After reading all of these horror stories - Im beginning to think that my 3-5 days of serious PMS are totally worth it vs. 3 weeks of serious depression