Smirinoff symptoms and conditions

hi im a 19 year old girl and i've been on tramadol for at least a year. i was given it because of a pinched nerve in my lower back. and what is worse than the back pain is the addiction. my doctor told me since it is no-narcotic there will be no addiction so i took as perscribed. 2 every 6 hours.. well that didn't help so i bumped it up to three.. well here i am a year later and im trying like hell to get off.. i have horrible withdrawels.. i tried to get off them about a month ago but the withdrawels were so terrible i couldn't so tomorrow i am trying to again.. luckily i have a little smirinoff to help me when im at my worst.. you know just to take the edge off.. not to get drunk or anything.. but i love my tramadol.. but hate these withdrawels.. why is it that im having them? could it all be in my mind.. could i just be building up the idea of not having them so much that i put my self in a state of anxiety.. please help.. tell me if anyone has had withdrawels from these wolf in sheeps clothing pills