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I am a recovering heroin addict. Everyone thinks I am sober. However, I feel differently. I have been taking Neurontin for about a year now and am completely addicted to it. My doctor began prescribing me 300 mg. 3x a day. when I realized it gave me a calming, relaxing, energizing feeling. It made me feel like I could handle anything. My kids, work, cooking, the laundry, my emotions. Everything was perfect, I was in total control. I convinced the doctor I needed more, "MY BACK PAIN BECAME IMENSE!!" I am now up to 900mg, 3x a day and am honestly popping 15- 20 pills at a time. I am so disgusted with myself. I have tried to stop and feel trapped. When I take my normal dosage I feel extremely dizzy, anxious, confused and disconnected. My stress level is very high. I feel like the world is coming down on me. My body hurts. I feel like I've been hit by a truck. I cannot handle reality. I found this website. looking for help, an alternative, someway to help me get off this shit. I get headaches and SEVERE diarrhea. Neurontin is extremely addictive, physically and mentally!!!

Im sorry that i didn't read this valuable information before starting this terrible anti biotics. I was prescribed doxy for mild acne, however after two weeks and a visit to the ER what i ended up with was chest pains and a very painful throat. Oh yes added to my panic. Well after two days the chest pains have subsided, but its still painful to swallow and eat. Does anyone know how long this feeling would last? Or whether I should see another doctor. Im hoping that it will get better since ive been off the meds now for about 2 days. Any advice is welcomed. To all who have suffered in someway over this nasty drug, hope you all feel better, and you're not in this alone, apparently we all have suffered in some way. Hope you all feel better soon