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I HAVE BEEN ON TOPAMAX FOR 3 YEARS. I AM NOW UP TO 3OOMG A DAY. I HAVE COMPLEX MIGRAINES THAT ARE LIKE SEIZURES. SINCE BEING ON THE MEDICATION I HAVE NOT HAD AN ATTACK. YES I HAVE SIDE AFFECTS, I AM VERY FORGETFUL, I CAN'T READ A BOOK, I START TALKING AND FORGET WHAT I AM GOING TO SAY. I HAVE ACHES AND PAINS AND MY EYE SIGHT IS WORSE.
BUT I REMEMBER 3 YEARS AGO THE WOMAN LAYING IN THE HOSPITAL BED WHO DIDN'T KNOW HER NAME OR HER FAMILY. MY LEFT SIDE OF MY BODY LOOKED LIKE I HAD A STROKE. i DON'T WANT TO GO THROUGH THAT AGAIN SO I WILL PUT UP WITH THE SYMPTOMS .
I ALSO TAKE EFFEXOR AND HAVE TAKEN THIS MEDICATION FOR 7 YEARS. I DID ASK THE DR. IN THE BEGINNING IF IT WAS OK TO TAKE THESE TWO MEDICATIONS TOGETHER AND WAS TOLD YES BY THE DR. AND THE DRUGGIST.

I CAN'T UNDERSTAND WHY ANYONE WOULD FEEL SUICIDAL TAKING THIS MEDICATION. I BELIEVE YOU SHOULD CALL YOUR DR. RIGHT AWAY.