Tenses symptoms and conditions

As mentioned in a previous post, I started Topamax the end of October. Since then, I have lost 25lbs, I am 5'2 & weigh 90lbs.

I have been taking 50mg's, but as of last week, I have cut back to 25mg's. It has been really stressful for me because I am scared about getting my migraines again & possibly going thru the HORRIBLE side effects I went thru when I got on the pill.

In the last 8 days, my anxiety level has been really high. I have been taking more (sometimes 2x a day) of my .5mg of Xanax. I have felt myself gasping for breath from time to time. I think that my headaches come from tension/stress, my jaw tenses up. The headaches feel like brain freezes. I am also able to verbalize my thoughts better, so I don't feel so stupid.

My goal is to be more clear-headed, gain 15/18 lbs & hopefully my complexion will clear up. I will probably stay on 25mg's 2 more weeks before getting off. I will let ya'll know how it goes.

Will turn you into an emotionless, lethargic, drunk, apathetic zombie that has no more creative or human spark than a turnip does. Throw this crap in the garbage - NOW! I was prescribed this devil spawn drug from a PAIN MANAGEMENT doctor who told me it would help potentiate the Tylenol 3's he gave me. Drink a case of whiskey and smoke a crack rock the size of a buick and you'll essentially reach the point I was at after one of these pills. I started saying crazy things to my Girlfriend, started rearranging the refrigerator, slept for 10 hours (and I normally only sleep 4-6 hours) and woke up with these thoughts in my head like "What am I doing with my life? Nothing is going right, Everything I touch turns to hell". By about 10:30 in the morning at work, it finally started coming out of me and I started waking up and realized just how bad it was. DO NOT take this medication unless you are so severely psychotic that you simply can't make yourself stop killing squirrels. Why the hell a DOCTOR would prescribe this evil in pill form for Pain Management is so far beyond me, it's like wiping before you poop, just don't make no sense.