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I've had experiences with depression and birth control pills in the past...Femcon Fe is no acception. I am now in the 5th month. After the first month, I was experiencing loss of appetite, and nausea anytime I ate anything. During the day, I could barely stay awake, and at night, I kept waking up constantly. My doctor said to keep taking Femcon and the symptoms would improve...I kept at it. After almost losing my boyfriend to one of my RIDICULOUS mood swings, the symptoms seemed to be at bay. Two months later, almost overnight, I'm back to feeling "crazy." The headaches are back. I'm lethargic all the time, experience a lack of energy, no appetite, don't want to get up and go to work, am BEYOND exhausted ALL day long, have trouble staying asleep, resent my boyfriend's existence for NO reason at all, have sore breasts that have seemingly gotten bigger (let's be real ladies, if the price for bigger boobs is feeling emotionally erratic...it's not worth it!), had HORRIBLE period cramps, oh, and the nausea! The emotional instability is the worst. I feel like I can't get a grip on reality and that I'm completely disconnected with my former self. That's all I want back. I really liked my former self!!! : ( It's not worth it to go through life feeling depressed.