Wanted to believe symptoms and conditions

Hello ladies,
I have not written in awhile but check this site every single day to receive strength and encouragement. My nightmare started in July when I began to experience panic attacks, depression and a host of other symptoms that frightened me.

I am grateful to this day that I found this site, because I am not sure how I could have gotten this far without it. Although my husband, family and friends are extremely supportive, I have always relied so heavily on all of you, your stories and your encouragement. Women oftentimes get a bad rap for being catty and bad to eachother. I think this site shows how compassionate and caring women are. To see you all lift eachother up lifts me up, and I am amazed that even when we cannot find the strength to encourage ourselves, we are able to write a post that shows our care and encouragement for others that are experiencing this nightmare.

Thank you to flowerbabies, silke, chris35, sophie, murphy 70 and everyone else for helping me through this because of your posts. I think of you all each day and hope that you are all doing okay. I am sorry for all the mushy stuff, but I just had to show you my thanks for your honesty, compassion and encouragement!

As for my personal experience trying to heal from Yasmin, I am getting through this. I feel pretty normal most days, but sometimes around my period I feel the anxiety again. It is not nearly as intense or scary as it used to be, but my fear is always that I am going to be that bad again, somehow, even though I do not think that is possible. The anxiety itself is not that bad for me anymore, but I guess my fear of what it has the potential to be, because of what it was a few months ago, creates deeper anxiety. I just try to do what flowerbabies says and think positive thoughts. I also want to echo what I heard so many women say and what I wanted to believe so badly...IT DOES GET BETTER. There were some days when I wondered if it would, but like I said, I am almost completely back to normal. I am proof, ladies! You can get through this. Your bodies are strong and amazing, and think of what they can do!
Take care, everyone. I am always thinking of you.
Eryka