Worry wart symptoms and conditions

Thank god for the internet-I don't know what I would have done if I had to feel the way I did from taking Yasmin any longer without knowing why. I took Yasmin for two months. In the third week of my second month I suffered from severe anxiety and panic attacks along with irrational fears and obsessing on random thoughts that wouldn't normally bother me. When I would somewhat calm down, I would then feel so depresses because I didn't know why I just couldn't go back to feeling like myself. I am a worry-er, I admit, but never to this extreme. I was so nervous, I had no appetite and the anxiety really began to take its toll on me physically. Now that I look back on it, I was more nervous than usual in my first month, I have lost my sex drive, I have had small dizzy spells and blurred vision, random pains in my left lower abdomen area, but I never put these all together. When I found not only this website, but tons others with women writing about all of these side effects, I already started feeling like myself again. It's been 4 days off the pill and I still get a little anxious, but nothing like it was last week. I can't wait for this stuff to get out of my system. I did take the pill at 7:45 every night and I do notice I'm more nervous in the morning when I get up and by late afternoon, I start to relax and feel more like myself. Synthetic hormones are not natural and I really feel like we shouldn't put this stuff in our bodies. We are messing with scary stuff. God only knows what would have happened if I had to endure any more of that physical and mental pain!

SIDE EFFECT = MOOD SWINGS IMMEDIATELY FOLLOWING DISCONTINUATION??

I took Yasmin for over a year and just went off of it because I hated what it was doing to my body, and my mind. Physically, the only noticeable side effect was the nausea. I literally had to eat every four hours to prevent having an empty stomach....or I would get painfully nauseous. PANIC attacks. During stressful times (i.e. moving) my heart would race to the point I could not catch my breath. I never had a problem handling "normal" stress. PERIODS WERE UNNATURAL. Without getting too descriptive, it just wasn't a natural flow and dragged on for 10 days but was so gross. NO SEX DRIVE. With the greatest boyfriend in the world, who is so cute, this made no sense to me but again, I brushed it off as being related to job-stress. TOTAL ANXIETY. I guess I've always been a worry wart...but my anxiety level reached a new high. Again, I attributed this to job stress. DEPRESSION. This was the worst and again, I attributed it to job stress. And then I convinced myself that the depression was what was causing my lost sex drive (which makes sense and is true). But job dissatisfaction and whatever else has been getting me down is no real reason for the level of depression I had been experiencing....Also my sister went on Yasmin and became visibly DEPRESSED too but she blame it on her job as well, and actually just got a new one.....and I will be curious to see if her depression lifts at all.

This month, my first BCP-free month in over one year, my sex drive is finally back to normal, I'm not as depressed (but still down), and still very anxious. Over this past week, I've been PMSing and totally out of control. Suddenly I am moodier than ever before. I cry for no real reason. I am so irritable that even while I'm in the middle of over-reacting I still can't control it - and it takes me an hour to calm down and laugh about how ridiculous I'm being. And then 24 hours later I do it all over again. I'm totally crazy. I'm picking fights - I'm being a jerk. I'm just pissed off and aggitated. I finally get my period (today) and my cramps are horrendous - like they were 10 years ago. I've popped 800 mg of advil this morning and still feel the cramps. The depression? well that has been lifted but replaced by this rollercoaster mood disorder. I've been a total PMS witch.

On the pill my mood swings were actually under control (maybe because I was depressed ALL the time which was steadier than up/down/up/down). What I really need is something to help me with my PMS emotional symptoms. Has anyone been experiencing this?