sitting here staring at my xanax pill. I am anxious enough to 'ne...

sitting here staring at my xanax pill. I am anxious enough to 'need' it right now but I really don't 'want' to have to do this. Odd as this may sound; I am afraid to take it because it may make me feel better and thus it will become a crutch for me to take it. My doc has already said no refills and only gave me enough for 2 weeks @ one per day. I know I probably sound crazier than I already feel but I don't want to become relient on a pill to get me through the day but I know if I don't take it I will feel like hell until this goes away. WHY OH WHY did I ever agree to take Yasmin? Oh yeah, that's right because my husband won't even talk about a vasectomy. Forgive my rant today; I just wondered if I was alone in wanting/yet not wanting to have to take meds. Denise