I am extremely sensitive to SSRIs and most drugs that affect the ...

I am extremely sensitive to SSRIs and most drugs that affect the CNS. However, Paxil always seemed to be a miracle drug to cure depression, at least until I have to taper off of the medication. I've been on and off for about 4 years now, because it always seems to make me too high to function, no matter how low the dose is. This time I came off of a low dose of Paxil after a couple of weeks (my body simply can't handle it). The side effects seem to be that I never really went off of the drug. My thoughts are not as complex as they were, my libido is almost non-existant, I pay little attention to detail, and I can't get stressed about anything (not even to get my work done). My memory is bad and I don't fantasize or daydream about anything. It's almost as if I'm stuck in the present constantly, not thinking about the past or the future, thus causing little thought before I speak or act (thought about the consequences). I don't know when this will end. It's been months and I feel slightly braindead, but happy. I need to bring myself back to normal so that I can do well at my job (I have a fairly high level job in higher ed), and plan for the future... back to grad school. Oh, one last side affect is that if I do get pushed into anger or annoyance, about a second later I can't even remember what I what the outburst was about, while the other person is still recovering from the outburst. Not a good thing at all. I wonder if anyone has any suggestion or similar experience? I can't wait for this to be over, if it ever will be.