Sophie, Sarah, BitterRN, so glad to see that you are here. And...

Sophie, Sarah, BitterRN, so glad to see that you are here. And even if you think you couldn't help, believe me: YOU ALL DO IT alone with your encouraging words. Thank you so much for trying to help me not to loose hope again completely. It's relieving to see, that I'm not alone... Every single post of you three moved me to tears. Sophie, yes, you maybe right. 5 years with Yasmin were definitely a long time, MUCH TOO long. And yes, perhaps I should have much more patience than others who have only been on this hellsent drug for a few months. That's what my mum and my husband also keep telling me every day. But it's so difficult to accept, that there always can be a setback after a time, where you feel pretty good (as I did for the past few weeks, or 2 - 3 months...). You just think "Well, it HAS to stay that way now and I have to be through that all for good!" And it's been such a long time without Yasmin and still everything in my body is so incredibly out of whack sometimes.... :( And BitterRN, you are also right, hormones are fluctuating over the weeks and even month after month. I still felt that changes every 2 weeks (well, though never that heavy as I now do again.....). And your theory about the testosterone sounds more and more interesting to me. I was really wondering, why that first period about 3 months ago was that heavy and long and why the last two periods where that light (the second was nearly not there, just a kind of spotting for 3 days...) and short. Well, at the moment I've got that sore breasts again just like every time around the 20ieth until the end of a month. That always happened the last 3 months!! So I'm just wondering if my period or at least the spotting will come again too around starts of November...... Perhaps that bad cold was the reason for the testosterone to get low again (well, the immune system surely had to work very hard to fight against that virus and that may have caused an imbalance in other things again....). But I really think I should have a hormonal test done and see, how my hormones might have changed in the meantime (last hormonal test was around June 2005....). Wish me the power to go to another doc..... I haven't visited any of them since June 2005! I was so done with all that senseless docs visits..... And I still don't have very much trust in them since I went through so much bad experiences with doctors in 2004/2005..... My only hope is: The last time I had a cold (October 2004!) I still took the Yasmin and that DEFINITELY was the reason for my complete breakdown in December. So I just try to believe (and hope), that this time everything will be different and my now again upcoming muscle problems, the dizziness, tiredness and so on won't get worse and worse, because my body surely will get better in balance because there's nothing "disturbing" it anymore...... Sarah, yes, I've heard of that, too (things have to get worse, until they finally get better fo good) and I so much hope that you are right!! Thank you again for being there and god's bless to you!! We HAVE to get through this and WE WILL!!!!! If only there were a few women who have been on Yasmin as long as me or some who have been off Yasmin for longer than 1 - 2 years already... Is there anybody??? Would be so good to hear, how you all are doing!! See and read you all soon!! love, Silke