I have been taking Depakote / Dilantin cocktails for over 10 year...

I have been taking Depakote / Dilantin cocktails for over 10 years !! 600mg Dilantin and 3000mg Depakote every day !! If I miss a few pills or a dosage I will inevitably have a traumatic grand mal seizure. The funny thing is, I have not experienced many of the side effects you guys speak of. I have gained some weight in the last few years (20lbs), but I'm also getting to that age ( 49 ) where guys put on a few pounds. It is very scary knowing that my body (brain) could be this screwed-up !! I wish my wife was more understanding about this - although its tough for her too...