Started Lamictal after a suicide attempt. Thinking this drug wou...

i was struck by your posting because i relate %100 percent. i certainly am not as organized, energetic and over-achieving as i used to be. ironically, that is what's good about bi-polar, it's the manias i miss the most....where i have a lot of energy, extremely focused--i at times felt like i was better than other people...

now i am not focused, don't have much energy, and certainly have self-doubt. here's a silly example, i usually love thrill rides...i'll try just about anything once...this summer though, i went to an amusement park and wanted to try this really freaky ride, the one that you pay extra to ride after you pay to get into the park...it boomerangs you higher than the tallest drop ride...anyway, when i was in my chair ready and waiting for it to boomerang, i all the sudden felt intense fear-- i have never felt that before. i also forget words. i am usually really well-spoken, but in conversations and even in letters/emails, i can't remember even the easiest and simple words--it's really frustrating. and i forget EVERYTHING. i have forgotten to show up to 4 hair appointments this summer...and i don't think my hair dresser wants to schedule me anymore :(

but, i don't have the depressions, and i don't feel the need to kill myself or draw everyone into my problems. so it's worth it...but i might try other meds.

anyway, hang in there...the most important thing to all of us is that you take care of yourself, and realize how important you are.

Hi I have gained 30lb.'s in three years.I can't recall names,where I am going and the things that I use'd to be able to do . I am Bipolar and have been on med's for 7 years..It's not you it's the med...