I have been taking Topamax for 3 months for cluster headaches (wh...

I have been taking Topamax for 3 months for cluster headaches (which is pain equivalent to childbirth). Topamax has made me a maniac. At first, it has been helping, but now that my doc has me on 200 mg a day, I feel like the first thing that I think of when I wake up is death. I worry about everything! I forgot my son's birth date when filling out a dental form. I can't remember the family cat's name. I don't know the second line of our bedtime prayers, etc. I feel like crying because THIS IS NOT ME! I am normally very sharp and witty and I just can't seem to get my normal thoughts out. Today I only took 3 pills instead of 4. I am starting the weaning process myself. I have stuck with it as long as I could. It's time to find something else....a good massage perhaps.