Hi, I can relate to much of what you are describing and it seems we have some of the same concerns, as do many others who post here.
I am so glad you took the time to tell your story because I have been worried about my future (when I hope to be free of this drug someday). I've been on it for almost three years and it has made my life more miserable than the original problem of having an irregular heartbeat (the cause of me being put on it).
Every time I've tried to wean off of toprol, I have bad chest pains and my BP goes way up. It scares me so much I just keep taking it. I've tried to talk to doctors about this and for the most part I have not found one who even seems to understand the side effects...in fact they don't even seem to know much about Toprol, at all, yet they freely prescribe it.
I have posted here before and asked for anyone to please tell us what problems getting off of it may bring, and so far you're the first one to take the time to do so. I worry for you, and for all the rest of us, because I also suspect we may be left with permanent problems and I don't know if any doctors out there have a good clue how to help us. I wouldn't be surprised if yet another class action law-suit doesn't show up someday.
Whatever happens, I wish you well. If you ever do feel better, I hope you will take the time to post here again and let us know if your problems get better...take care, Judi