I've been on neurontin for about 3 years. I take 2400mg per I ha...

Got a question, how do you deal with it? I wasnt told I would blow up like a balloon. I hate to even see myself in the mirror now.Packed on the pounds, and swollen everywhere, dont really even recognize me. Do the effects go away? What if I stop the drug, will the weight leave with it? I'm terrified. I am very sick, in alota pain, doesnt leave a chance for me to excercise, so I am very careful what I eat. Since I began this med before christmas I have put on 20 pounds.ALSO I have these horrible involuntary movements, gerking of my hands, that makes me break things, and eating in public a challange. Doctor is adiment that I take these drugs, I dont wanna. where are you on yours? You keep taking it or wien off?
Praying for an answer,
Dusty