2 days ago I just happened to come across this website. I was in ...

2 days ago I just happened to come across this website. I was in tears reading all of your stories. It sounded like it was me writing! You have given me the answer to all my misery over the past 3 years! My marriage nearly failed from all of this. I was married in July 2005, had a son in March 2006 and immediately had the Mirena IUD inserted. I thought it was the best thing on earth! No side effects... that I was aware of!! It all came on so gradually that I blamed my symptoms on post-partum hormones and a change in life-style. I remember I became a total bitch towards my husband very shortly after I got the Mirena. I gave up exercizing, ate like crazy (partially probably due to breastfeeding), and I had absolutely no sex drive, which was a 180 for me, because previously I wanted sex everyday! I blamed this on hormones too, or maybe my weight gain... just not feeling sexy anymore. When my son was 12 months old, I had the Mirena removed, only to try to get pregnant. We had a daughter in December of 2007, and I immediately had the Mirena re-inserted. As time went on, I was the bitch I was after my son was born.. again, I blamed it on my hormones. My back was killing me all of the time.. I blamed that on having to carry my daughter around. Then the insomnia hit me.. wow! I would lie awake in bed till 6:30 in the morning, and this was after my daughter finally started sleeping through the night. Maybe I had insomnia the months prior but never noticed because I was up all night long with my daughter anyways. I was miserable, depressed, moody, and incredibly mean towards my husband (thank God not towards my kids). He's a saint to still be here. Last summer I started getting pain in my joints. Some days I couldn't lift my kids because my wrist was so sore... or I was limping because of my hip or my knees. I was also incredibly depressed at this point. I was getting virtually no sleep, was pissed off at my husband all the time, and looking after 2 kids was draining me. My husband, being non-confrontational, was lying to me all the time try not to rock the boat. I found out he was lying to me, and I thought he was having an affair. I was crying all day everyday... finally after everyone told me I was depressed, my doctor put me on anti-depressants, and a bedtime pill called Elavil to help me sleep and to help with my joint pain. We went to marriage counselling (still are). After 2-3 sessions with an amazing counsellor, we realized I was not suffering from depression. Thank God, because the anti-depressants were making me even more miserable and I was binge eating like crazy! My husband and I, with the help on counselling, have since dealt with all of our problems. So why am I still so unhappy? Why is my join pain coming back? The Elavil is not working for my pain anymore. My body feels like I have the flu. Achy, but more intense and joint-specific. I have no energy or motivation to do daily tasks like laundry, clean the kitchen, or even take a shower and get dressed. When my kids wake from their nap, I feel like crying because I don't feel like a good mother is caring for them. 3 days ago I was with my husband and kids and had to leave because I began to cry. My husband came to ask me what was wrong, and I just said that I was in so much pain, I couldn't stand it. The truth, which I did not tell him was: I literally could not take another day like this. If I don't get better, I don't want to live anymore. I was not contemplating suicide, but I'll tell you this.. if I hadn't found this website when I did, who knows what I would have done! Looks like I know how to make a long story even longer! LOL. My husband and I went out for a romantic dinner on Friday to celebrate Valentines. I told him what I had discovered.. actually, I just handed him this website on my iPhone. AS he read your stories, we both were in tears! The last 3 years should've been the happiest of our lives, and we were robbed by this devil-IUD!! Last night I couldn't take it anymore. I was crying and my husband said, "why don't you just go to a walk-in clinic and have it removed?" So I did! It was painless and I have no bleeding or cramping as of yet! I don't know if it's psychological, but I feel terrific today. My joints are achy still, but my mental state is on cloud nine! I have energy today and have been playing with my wonderful adorable kids all day. Let's hope it lasts. I will keep you all posted! I hope my story helps someone as much as you have all helped me. You have saved my marriage, and probably my life. Thank you all!!