I was prescribed Topamax on 10/22/08. Since then, I have lost 25...

I was prescribed Topamax on 10/22/08. Since then, I have lost 25 lbs and am now down to 91 lbs. I am only taking 50mg at night. However, I had a horrible adjustment phase. That has scared me from getting off of this and trying something new. What if that doesn’t work and I have to go back on this. Going thru that phase again is not an option. I had zero energy, I often nodded off at my desk. I had a very blank feeling, no emotions. No suicidal thoughts, no happy thoughts… I just existed. I did become snappy with some of my co-workers and said things that were so out of character for me. I found another message board that explained so much. I knew I wasn't going insane, it gave me some clarity. When I sent it to them, they understood. I don’t stay focused, I get very flustered when trying to have a conversation & the words that I want to say won’t come out. I feel stupid. I had tingles in my feet, fingers & face. Shortness of breath, high anxiety, trouble sleeping. During the months of November & December my weight really dropped. There wasn’t a day that 2 people did not comment on how skinny I was getting. So that added to my stress. Mid-January I weighed 97, I went to my doctor when I got to 91. I have little interest in food. I usually order a variety of stuff that way I will have a few bites of something, then a few bites of something else. When people comment about taking this for weight loss or for migraines, I tell them that it isn’t worth it. I suggest that they do research and really think about if their life can handle being forgetful & stupid. Had I done research on this before taking it, I am not so sure I would have. Although, you always think… “It won’t happen to me.” I am wanting to go back to school in the fall and know that I can’t be on this when I do. I need to know what I learn.