My psychiatrist has me on two 20mg Adderall everyday. He just add...

My psychiatrist has me on two 20mg Adderall everyday. He just added Remeron to my cycle and it ruined everything! It's hard to find something for anxiety/depression that works with the Adderall well. I've tried everything but this one scares me. SSRIs and SNRIs usually make my head tingle, more anxious than usual, and unpredictable mood-wise. After starting Remeron for about a week, I had a massive strange hours long panic attack. I tried to slit my ankle, screamed and yelled things at everyone I came into contact with, walked off down the street three separate times (three diff. people had to come find me every time). My skin felt "creepy-crawly" and I was SO angry and couldn't get away from the anger. I'm still waiting on the Dr. to call me but I told his secretary I just am NOT taking it. I'll take the nerves, shakiness, and sweatiness ANY DAY over feeling crazy like that. Angry and wanting to die.. not for me.