I am diagnosed with bipolar - The Dr.s gave me Depakote and I too...

I am diagnosed with bipolar - The Dr.s gave me Depakote and I took it for a good 3mo before A) Returning to the Dr. to be treated for my constant DEPRESSION B) having the WORST SUICIDAL/HOMICIDAL thoughts of buying a gun and using it... They wouldn't give me anything for my depression because they said I was too HAPPY at times (You have to be f***g kidding me) I simply stopped taking it and haven't had but a few minor suicidal thoughts - at least they are not homicidal, and I have been back to being super happy all the time. Im sorry if you are not supposed to be happy in this life - I will gladly embrace the daily ups and downs over the 3 months of flatlined hardcore depression any day! I did not like NOT being myself at all.