jesus its really comforting to explore the possibility that all ...

jesus its really comforting to explore the possibility that all this unnecessary havoc is the synthroid! i have wasted the last four years in complete confusion, and utter weirdness .and frankly feel old as hell .. ive always felt up until 5th grade, the times would never be so jolly, but the last four have been dead since my diagnosis at .75 mg; i feel like a numb, lifeless, terrified kid trying to feel something, if anything at all. I have experienced many of the symptoms below, hair loss, anxiety, extreme bipolar moods, and depression. I want to cry for keeping my mouth shut for so long and i constantly fret and worry that age twenty is killing me faster than other people for no apparent reason- im done and would be thrilled to cash in my manic depressive cynicism for a sleepy and happy soul. now i have to figure what to do next...any suggestions other than throwing the shits in a fire?