been taking efexor for 3 months. first few weeks were great, I wa...

been taking efexor for 3 months. first few weeks were great, I was off my face on happiness. that slowly died and the depression came back. For the first time ever I've had serious suicidal thoughts and can easily imagine killing people that make my life difficult. I've been wnating to leave my husband but don't know if I really think that or if it's the drugs making me think that. I have no sexual desire waht so ever, I'm only 22. This is the reason I want to leave my husband, what use am I when I don't only not want sex but I also hate myself for doing it when we do. All in all I think efexor has done more to increase my depression than fix it. I'm getting off it now against my doctors advice, but hey it's my life.