I'm using Effexor for 2 months now for depression / ocd. In the ...

I'm using Effexor for 2 months now for depression / ocd. In the beginning it was hard. It made me nauseous and felt malaise. This settled down after a week, then everything looked more confident, less sad, more calm. This doesn't last very long. It robbed me of emotions. Even my boyfriend said I'm like a shell of a person, despite I thought I feel like myself, he said I look very distant. "Abnormal thoughts" is also labeled as a SE. I didn't know what it meant until I realized I became more insensitive, less compassionate. So I recall some things that I said that may seem offstandish. I no longer cry when I see something very heartfelt. I listen to music but it's just like noise, I can't enjoy it. I can read poetry or watch a good film but it doesn't affect me. I'm not in love with my bf, my loved ones - just life in general. Then some days I feel flu-like and depressed and just want to stay curled up in bed all day. I have to get off it b/c it's not good for my heart. Sometimes it shakes hard like a snowglobe. Palpitations. And paranoia sometimes. I get a really creepy feeling. And gory dreams of decay. Good side: It cured most of my ocd & social anxiety. Raised my IQ on good days, due to deeper focus to a point I can get lost inside my own head.