I had three pregnancies-gainesd same weight, carried them all the...

Hi, my mother was on utopar while pregnant with me, and I have been battling with the same problems among more, mostly addiction, but also ADHD, depression, all kinds of disorders, like personality disorder and panic disorder and have had psychosis a few times but never been diagnosed with any specific disease except alcoholisim. A lot got better when I was active in AA, but I was still pretty messed up unlike my friends in the fellowship. I've been in a mental institution here in Iceland for about 10-15 times and all my doctor has told me is that I have a very sensitive mentality. Now I had a electric treatment, I am working the AA program and I am going through psycho therapy, and I am living a descent life. My IQ is 145 (my english is not to good because it's not my language, I speak Icelandic) but still I have had trouble in school because of my addiction. And even though I'm clean today it's been a real struggle. I've tried so many things to get clean, but always relapsed after a few weeks. 17 times in a detox center, a thousand AA meetings, work the 12 steps a few times, get initiated into many cults and sects, 4 whole treatments, all kinds of medications and so on. And I'm only 28. Maybe this is due to the Utopar, who knows?