Mirena Demon Posessed, Poor Self Image, Depression Meds, Devil Woman, Post Pardom
I feel like I am Demon Posessed! I am a Christian woman who loves her husband and children more than life itself, and in the last three weeks I have turned into a crazy person. I had the Mirena put in three months ago. I had a period or spotting for two ... more »
I feel like I am Demon Posessed! I am a Christian woman who loves her husband and children more than life itself, and in the last three weeks I have turned into a crazy person. I had the Mirena put in three months ago. I had a period or spotting for two and a half months but two weeks ago when that stopped the crazy devil woman showed up. I have never suffered from depression, anxiety, poor self image or rage until now. In reality I am 29, 140pounds and have the best husband and two great kids 2 and four months. my life was better than ever and then all of a sudden in my mind my husband did not love me and was not doing his part to fulfill my needs and my children were more than I could deal with, I was getting hostile impatient angry and depressed I felt ugly, soooooo fat and had no control over my life. I also had suicidal thoughts and I tried to leave my husband. I wanted him to know how hard it was and I wanted him to feel what I was going through, because he was living in the rational and I wasn't I was angry, alone and scared. then all of a sudden I couldn't even remember why I was upset and everything seemed fine. I had a bad go with the pill, I was emotional and a little irrational and insecure but when I went off of it I was fine. I am getting this taken out because even though the dose of hormone is supposed to be small I feel as though I am hitting a wall of intense or (nonexistent at times) emotions. I just kept crying to my husband last night, I want me back... I want me back, and he does too. I also had the headaches cramping and discharge, a yeast infection, itching and weight gain, bloating and I feel like I have no energy, I don't mind having sex but it isn't something I Iook forward to. I feel so very ashamed for the way my husband and children have been treated by me and I will be the first to say that nothing is worth loosing your family, your sense of security in yourself and your sanity. The doctor told me that I might be in post pardom or need depression meds.... NO I DON'T! I don't feel like medicating a medication. And thats what I would be doing. This Was NOT for me and it almost ruined my family. My husband is a great man and if it wasn't for his patience and kindness we would not be doing good right now. I am looking forward to having it taken out. I miss myself and who I am is not this woman of constant sorrow!!! One thought in my mind stands out... If I would have committed suicide, would Mirena have been responsible? In all of my life I have never had thoughts like these and It hurts me to think that there are woman out there who could be acting out in response to this birth control. I felt like hurting my children... I felt like leaving my husband... I felt like killing myself. And This IS NOT WHO I AM. My doctor is taking it out today and she isn't charging me because we have no insurance and she is a very good woman. I am thankful that my story is this and that it didn't get much worse. My sister is on it too and she is having the same problems except she is having hallucinations. I am trying to tell her to get it out but the doctor told her that its the breast feeding. I disagree with that because she has breast fed all her children and this has never happened. I didn't breast feed while on this and I am having crazy things happen. Don't let the doctor talk you out of getting it removed it didn't get better for me over time it got worse.