Effexor XR and withdrawl symptoms

Heart racing so much I can hardly breathe. Nausea beyond belief and vomiting, feels like my head will explode, insomnia, nightmares, sweats where I am drenched from head to toe......to name but a few. I'm on this website because my Doctor tells me it's not the medication and I know it is. I've been on 3x75mg per day and have weened myself down to 75mg a day over the last year but side effects are getting much worse. Feel like I should take myself to hospital but don't think I can get there. Depression was bad enough but now I'd rather not be here at all.

I have been on Effexor XR since May 2007. I started out with lowest dose 37.5mg and then was increased to 75mg in June or July. Since then I have been experiencing weird dreams (vivid), fits of anger, compulsive behavior, suicidal thoughts and tendencies. I have asked my doc to take me off the meds because I don't like who I have become on them. But all they did was increase my med dosage to 150mg. I want to just stop taking it all together but am afraid of the withdraw symptoms if not slowly taken off of it. What should I do?? I would not recommend this antidepressant to anyone!!!