Effexor and losing my mind

I started taking Effexor 75 mg in 2003 because of stomach problems- my doctor thought I maybe was experincing stress, so he prescribed it and Prontonix. The Prontonix worked great, but the Effexor- I never should have gone on it, as I wasn't depressed until AFTER I started taking it. Either I was depressed, or I was a zombie. My life was like a nightmare that I didn't even realize I was in until after I stopped taking it cold turkey in September of 2006. Everytime I used to miss doses, I would have this horrible dizzy feeling, but then I would make sure I got it ASAP so that the feeling would go away. When I wasn't able to get the drug due to a change in my insurance deductible, I came very close to losing my mind. My job suffered, the repercussions still in existence and I almost lost my marriage of 5 years before we even celebrated our 5th Anniversary, but then once the withdrawal symptons finally stopped about 60 days later, I now have a clarity on life that I never had before. My husband said that he finally had his wife back. I promise to never ever go on another drug that is an anti-depressive for any reason.

I'VE BEEN ON EFFEXOR FOR THE PAST 2AND A HALF YEARS. BEFORE THAT, CELEXA. BEFORE TAKING EFFEXOR MY MIND WAS SHARP AND I HAD PLENTY OF ENERGY TO CARRY ME INTO THE WEE HOURS OF MORNING. NOW I CAN'T HARDLY FIND THE ENERGY TO GET THROUGH THE DAY. MY HOUSE IS NEVER CLEAN ANYMORE, I HAVE NO DESIRE TO EVEN TRY. AND THIS IS FROM A WOMAN WHO'S HOUSE USED TO STAY VERY CLEAN. MY TRAIN OF THOUGHT RAMBLES AND I CAN NO LONGER CONVERSE WITH MOST ADULTS. I FORGET THE APPROPRIATE WORDS TO USE. I MAKE MY LIVING WRITING. I HAVEN'T BEEN ABLE TO WRITE ANYTHING DECENT IN THE PAST TWO YEARS WHICH HAS CAUSED MY BUSINESS TO SUFFER. A YEAR AGO MY DOCTOR TRIED TO CHANGE ME FROM EFFEXOR TO WELLBUTRIN. I FELT ASTHOUGH I HAD LOST MY MIND. I CRIED CONSTANTLY AND NOT THINKING RATIONALLY,SUDDENLY DECIDED TO SELL MY HOME THAT I LOVED DEARLY. NEEDLESS TO SAY WITH MY LUCK, IT SOLD RATHER QUICKLY LEAVING ME WITH NO WHERE TO GO. THINKING THE WELLBUTRIN CAUSED ALL THIS CONFUSION, NEVER THINKING ABOUT POSSIBLE WITHDRAWAL FROM EFFEXOR, I STOPPED THE WELLBUTRIN AND STARTED AGAIN ON THE EFFEXOR. I TOLD MY DOCTOR ABOUT LOSING MY MIND AND SELLING MY HOME AND WAS TOLD HE FELT I MAY BE BI-POLAR. TALK ABOUT DEPRESSION! I WANT TO THANK EACH OF YOU THAT HAS POSTED ON THIS WEBSIGHT YOUR BATTLES WITH THIS SO CALLED WONDER DRUG. AT LEAST I FEEL I MAY HAVE A CHANCE OF GETTING BACK TO NORMAL IF I CAN BEAT THIS HABIT. I'M AS ADDICTED AS ANY JUNKIE TO ANY STREET DRUG AND HAD ALWAYS PRIDED MYSELF ON BEING CLEAN EVEN AS I GREW UP IN THE FREE LOVE AN DRUG GENERATION. ALL I CAN SAY IS GOD HELP US ALL.