Effexor and suicidal thoughts

DON'T TAKE EFFEXOR unless you want be on a med forever. I did not have any problems getting on it but after two years I am wanting to get off of it because I think I am in a much better place. I have been tapering off and I am down to 37.5 and I just cant get off of it. I was all the way up to 150 so you would think all the down to where I am that I could get off this. NOPE!!!! I hate it i hate it I hate it. I don't mind being on it but I just don't think I need it...... but I am thinking my body is telling me differently. This just sucks getting off of it!!!!

I'm 31 and started taking Effexor a week ago 75mg to begin with. Today I'm doubling the dose. I am mourning for the loss of my husband whom I have been together with for three years and married for 4 months! In a week I had a serious nervous breakdown due to an obsession in my mind; related to getting his personal belongings from his family. But today when I think about my feelings, it seems as if they're all lost. Or they are buried even deeper inside of me. I can't cry and this is uncomfortable. One day I'm seriously aggressive, another day I'm the easiest person on earth, then another day I'm fighting with my emotions like missing him bad. I had suicidal thoughts as well. When I look back, it seems overwhelming what I felt due to this medicine on top of my deep sorrow.
I don't really know how this dose doubling will affect me, but I'm anxious!!!!!

I was started on Effxor XR 35 mg last week. I took the 7 days worth and I have never had a headache like I have had with this medicine. I have had severe headaches, sleep disturbances, increased sweating, night sweats, suicidal thoughts, compulsive behavior. The doctor's office had me repeat the 35 mg again this week and the headaches are still there (very bad) the compulsive behavior has subsided, be the other effects are still there. I was on Paxil 30 mg a day then switched to the Effxor. At first I thought the headaches were due to having the paxil and the effxor in my system at the same time. I now think it is the Effxor and it wouldn't matter if the paxil was in my system or not.
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been taking efexor for 3 months. first few weeks were great, I was off my face on happiness. that slowly died and the depression came back. For the first time ever I've had serious suicidal thoughts and can easily imagine killing people that make my life difficult. I've been wnating to leave my husband but don't know if I really think that or if it's the drugs making me think that. I have no sexual desire waht so ever, I'm only 22. This is the reason I want to leave my husband, what use am I when I don't only not want sex but I also hate myself for doing it when we do. All in all I think efexor has done more to increase my depression than fix it. I'm getting off it now against my doctors advice, but hey it's my life.

I first went on Effexor in June of 2002 at 75mg a day. It seemed to be working fine. Then in June of 2003 I decided to stop taking it because I thought everything was fine. About one month later I was on it at 150mg a day. Because I was crying, had suicidal thoughts. I really didn't care about life. I took it for 4 months and decided this wasn't for me. I have been off for a week, and I feel really funny. I never told the doctor about getting off the medication. I am forgetting things, I feel out of it all the time. My heart feels as though it will pound out of my chest. I don't sleep at all. I try to fall asleep, and once I am try to go to a deep sleep I wake myself up. I hear things popping in my ears. I am a little scared because I don't know what will happen. Never heard anything bad about this drug, until I read these side effects. I don't think I would recommend this drug to anyone. Especially if you live alone, because there are nights I think I won't wake up.