Lamictal and trouble sleeping

I CANT BELIEVE THIS! on *** i read good things about this medication. I've been on it for about 8 months. lately i have felt like crap and tired and cant sleep. i get paranoid I'm using too much cleaner in my bathroom and just many things. the last 4 or 5 days I've had muscle aches i thought was the flu and a horrible migraine. memory loss.. i feel foggy. i feel like i can contain my mood better but I'm wondering what to do.. when i forget to take it i get messed up but IT CAUSES memory loss WHICH causes u to forget to take it! i have bad anxiety and trouble sleeping. i feel even now. dude I'm confused at this very moment.

I have been taking lamictal for about two months now, slowly increasing about 25 mg a week to insure that I do not get the serious rash. I am not at about 150mgs a day now. I really do not like this drug. I waited patiently to feel different, better, for my moods to stabalize, and in place of feeling that way, i have been somewhat disoriented, more emotional, at a loss for words and I generally feel "stupider." It is a horrible feeling, i am usually very quick to my feet, and now i am lagging. In addition, I have been having very vivid, intense dreams, that I never had prior to taking lamictal. All I want to do is get off of this drug, however, i have to do so slowly because of this rash, and that too will just be another long waste of my time.