Levaquin and coming home

hello i am a 28 year old mother of three i am going to school to become a nursing assistant just started my clinical.i have not been feeling good for the past 4 weeks went to my doc and asked for them to test my urin they took it and only did the dip stick instead of sending it to the lab the doc called me about a week later and told me everything looked good i said to him are you sure i feel like i have a uti so he told me if i am still not feeling well come back in in about a week so a week passes and now i am having pains in my back and trouble going to the bathroom so he does a (ua) i go to the lab to give urine and he put stat so the women said it should be back by tomorrow i called my doc the next day the receptionist says yes your results are in so i told her i am coming down cause she couldn't give me the results over the phone so i get ther and she tells me well it came back abnormal which i knew didn't have to pay $80.00 to tell me that i was the one telling the doctor that so anyway she tells me the doctor is in with another patient that i will have to wait i said oh no i feel like i am dying i am having so much pains in my kidneys so she said ok 1 min she got the doctor he called me down to his office and said well it looks like you had a uti and now it seems a little worse than that it might have traveled into your kidneys so i said i told you a few weeks ago when you said my urine came back fine i was in a lot of pain so now what he told me he was going to put me on levaquin 500 mg for 5 days and lets see how that works and to come back in in 2 weeks to take a repeat ua so i said ok got the prescription filled $50.00 later went home and read all the side effects and was so scared to take it but i was in so much pain and hearing about the actress who died of a ut i was so scared but i took it even know in my heart i knew it was not going to respond to me ok well let me tell you i almost had to quiet school i can hardly take care of my children just to walk up the stairs to go to the bathroom feels like i have been running a marathon for 10 miles we are a young couple and parents of 3 and i am a homemaker till i finish school so we live on my husbands pay check which really is living week by week nothing in saving cause we need every penny for bills and food but now i have been in so much pain not sleeping a wink cause i am so afraid of the nightmares that he has been home and not working which means no money is coming in at all i mean how do you tell your children well sorry i have nothing here and no money to buy you juice boxes for school i just really wanna give up i feel like i became a failure to my husband and children if i wasn't so sick he could be working and at least we can have the basics how do i tell them that we are almost out of oil and might not be able to have hot water i mean my life seems ruined all because of this drug i can not believe it i wish every day if i do fall asleep mybe it would be in my childrens best if i do not wake up but then feel like how can i even think that they love me no matter what i don't know i just can not even believe that my life turned around like this in the matter of a week how can this happen i really need help if anyone is out there please help i just wanna end it but i know deep in my heart my kids need me what to do

I had a hip replacement in June, then contracted a staph infection after that (non-MRSA, thank goodness!), for which I have been on a 12 week antibiotic protocol, in addition to having the hip opened again for cleaning and replacement. For the first 6 weeks, I had a PICC line in my arm, which was infusing Oxacillin every four hours 24/7, as well as two oral doses per day of Rifampin. After the removal of the PICC line, I was put on a daily dose of 750 mg of Levaquin (I was also on Levaquin in the hospital, and couldn't sleep for weeks after coming home from the hospital). I have now been on Levaquin for 4 weeks and have incredible pain. The first symptom and most annoying was insomnia, as well as EXTREME rotator ruff pain, stiff fingers, tendor pain in my left elbow, and right knee. I can't walk well, the bottoms of my feet hurt (what's up with that?), and I can't even put on my bra by myself, my shoulders hurt so much. I thought I could take the pain because I just DO NOT want to have the staph infection come back and have another hip replacement, but I think I will actually have to go off of it. It's just too much pain. And I'm worried about long term damage.