Remeron and psychiatrist

My psychiatrist has me on two 20mg Adderall everyday. He just added Remeron to my cycle and it ruined everything! It's hard to find something for anxiety/depression that works with the Adderall well. I've tried everything but this one scares me. SSRIs and SNRIs usually make my head tingle, more anxious than usual, and unpredictable mood-wise. After starting Remeron for about a week, I had a massive strange hours long panic attack. I tried to slit my ankle, screamed and yelled things at everyone I came into contact with, walked off down the street three separate times (three diff. people had to come find me every time). My skin felt "creepy-crawly" and I was SO angry and couldn't get away from the anger. I'm still waiting on the Dr. to call me but I told his secretary I just am NOT taking it. I'll take the nerves, shakiness, and sweatiness ANY DAY over feeling crazy like that. Angry and wanting to die.. not for me.

My mother has been on Remeron for four years. She started for depression and received the prescription from a psychiatrist. Our family raised questions about the drug with her psychiatrist after she began to have rage issues and became very disagreeable. My mother and her psychiatrist insisted the was doing fine on the medicine. Since that time things have only escalated. She now gets Remeron from her family doctor. She has become more and more enraged, throwing things and has gotten physical with my father, her husband of 46 years. He has been living with my sister for the past month because of her extreme behavior. She is estranged from all family, (except one son) and friends because of her behavior. We are very concerned for her. She has denied still taking Remeron but we did not believe this. And has recently found she has a newly filled prescription for 30mg.
I have called her doctor and relayed all of her extreme behavior. Just hope and pray he does not continue to prescribe this drug for her. It has torn my entire family apart. Any suggestions would be welcomed.