Topamax and risk

I was given topamax and I dont have seizures or anything. I have PTSD, Depression, and Panic Disorder. I was all over the map, having violent episode, and no memory of it (which was dissociation). They put me on this while i was in the hospital, and I became so non-functional it wasn't funny. I have a degree, grad school, and am 1/2 way through a masters, so I am normally well spoken rationale and well thought out. I was having trouble finding simple words. The effects came on immediately. My memory and cognitive abilities have been permanently affected. I was on for a year live in a outside a small city, and have no real option for other doctors. Not to mention..I found out that this drug has a high rate of users getting depression and in particular at risk for suicide. That was what happened with me...prior to taking it..Then they put me on it?

Trouble seeing, cognitive abilities, memory, depression (was already depressed, and suicidal, but I think it was counterproductive to the anti-depressants)

Is their any action against this drug?