Toprol-XL and household

I am a 36 year old African American Female. I have been on Toprol for 4 years. I take 25mg a day. At one point a dr. recommended I take 50mg a day. That was horrible. All of my side effects were worse. I decided to break the pills and stay at 25mg. The lower dosage is better. At 36, I look like I am in my early 20's! Most people guess my age at about 24. I don't feel like it at all. I am always tired, I don't have orgasms ( which is bad when you have boyfriends in their early 20's all the time) and I have anxiety and depression. I love to have fun but toprol keeps me depressed, uninterested and I cry for no reason at all. I just feel severely sad for no reason at all and cry. It is horrible. I was prescribed toprol for rapid heartbeat and mildly high bp. That it works for, but the side effects are gruesome! I tried another med for a month and I thought my heart was gonna jump out of my chest. I have 2 sons: 10 and 16, I can't be depressed and crazy all the time. I am very attractive and I want to enjoy life now that my kids are older. I'm getting off toprol!

I have been taking Toprol xl 50mg for about a year now, and I feel so tired and depressed. My antidepressant seems to have stopped working and it is hard to function and get the things that have to be done, done...Everyday it just seems to get worse, seems I just can't get caught up on job and household. It's hard just to get out of bed and get dressed! Major effort! What an awful feeling! My legs hurt all the time, I thought maybe it was just aches and pains from aging, I am 51. I want to get off this medication. Please help.