Versed and hernia operation

I went into Leighton hospital for a simple hernia operation as a day case and before the operation I told the nurse I didn’t want my knickers removed. She said as I was 21st they were not in the way and that was fine I also told her I didn’t want a suppository. I was taken into the anesthetic room and given a massive dose of Midazolam 10mg all in one go according to my medical records.
I then started having a terrifying dream of being gang raped I was in a room full of people and they were removing my knickers in the most dirty, vile filthy and perverted way I feared for my life. I was unable to stop them doing these vile things to me and I was totally humiliated being stripped in public in this way it was the most terrifying experience of my life.

Midazolam is know to enhance sexual feeling and lots of cases of people having these feeling that's why it popular as a date rape drug. My knickers were removed for none medical reasons they claim so they wouldn’t get stained. Any women would prefer to loose a 50p pair of knickers instead of being forcible striped by complete strangers. I don’t know if it was done so people could look at my private parts in order to get sexual pleasure or what. As it’s a criminal offense of Assault and Battery which can have a 6 months custodial sentence I wouldn’t think anyone would do it without they got pleasure out of it. To ask a women while awake to remove her own knickers is one thing but to forcibly strip someone is a totally different thing As I was coming around from the operation I was awake when a nurse lifted my legs and buggered me.

Both the things were done totally without my consent and expressly against my wishes I don’t care how good a reason you had you did it totally without consent and for that reason its sexual assault.

It has now been nearly 2 years since this happened and I still wake in the night from horrendous nightmares screaming and trying to cover my self from the sexual assault my heart rate goes through the roof and I cant breath. My life has changed I am dirty and can never be clean again I have been sexually abused just the same as if I had been raped but its worse than that as I was helpless and had no way of stopping the attack, I couldn’t even fight back. I cant have any sort of sexual relations as I am unclean and cant stand the thought of anyone touching me. I have been buggered and deeply humiliated without my consent has taken place and once again I was unable to stop this happening to me. I feel that some perverted women has had her wicked way with me and once again it was done against my wishes and without my consent.

What makes this worse is the hospital refuse to sack this woman or name her so she can be brought to justice. She has no excuse for what she did its her job to ensure she obtains consent before she touches anyone and simply asking if its ok and explaining what she wanted to do is all it took but she didn’t do any of these things just simply buggered me. As she didn’t seek consent I can only conclude that she is a lesbian and obtains great sexual pleasure from this act of sexual abuse. No decant caring nurse would do this terrible thing without first obtaining consent.

In the last 2 years I have lost over 11st in weight due to this incident. If I go out and see a group of people it can bring on panic attacks were I think they are going to strip me again my heart races and I cant get my breath. The attacks can happen watching television if there is anything similar to what happened to me. My life is a total mess I am depressed and often go into a world of my own for a week at a time. I cant talk about what happened without getting flash backs.

The hospitals attitude is once you give consent to an operation they can do what the fucking hell they like to you. For senior management to refuse to give the names of the perverts that did this is unbelievable. The senior management at the hospital refuse to answer any emails and have not bother to even apologize for the sexual assault they claim it was all done above board but if you bugger someone and remove their underwear without consent there is no great area its assault. The GMC have ruled that these things were done without consent so there is no doubt that in the eyes of the law a crime has been committed but still the hospital refuse to name or discipline the nurses who have done this to me.

I want all doctors and nurse to read this and I hope they will then think before they do anything to a patient without first obtaining consent they must remember that people are not just pieces of meat but have feelings and fears and are very vulnerable. Maybe reading this they will understand what effect their actions can have on someone. To them removing underwear is nothing but to many this has the effects that I have described. Many modern women might not mind but there are thousands who feel like I do.

I noticed my time in hospital that most don’t ask consent or explain what they intend to do they think they are gods better than the rest of us and can abuse patients and get away with it. I believe that most of the violent attacks on staff are because they don’t explain what they are doing and don’t seek consent. It take a second to say I want to take some blood is that ok.

I do accept that the whole incident was done for all the right reasons and nothing untoward happened but this doesn't make any difference to what I felt and what I still feel a lot of the feeling I believe are enhanced by the drug Midazolam that they used and it show they have considered the side effects of this drug. Midazolam can lead to the patient experiencing daydreams with a sexual content.