Xanax and seizures

Hi everyone,
I cannot live without xanax and its terrible, I have been on them for 5 months and have tried to stop them and its a nightmare. I suffer memory loss, have blackouts that I do not remember what I have said after a few drinks. It does help ease the social anxiety. But I have become moody, sleepy. . Does anyone else have these problems?

I've had prescriptions for alprazolam for over 3 yrs. I love this drug more than sex, food, vacations- it's the best feeling in the world to me. I can go places I normally feel uncomfortable, like a sports bar. The only bad part are the seizures when I run out- I can't hold onto a bottle loger than half a month- and I get over 100 mgs- I've had one on the beach, in a car, at 2 different jobs, in the shower- I've gotten better, though. Now, I taper off as much as possible- Xanax is responsible for the loss of my truest, longest love, my car, my best job, my independence/apartment, friends, family, money, reputation-- but I still love to take my Xanax tea and listen to music and see where the day takes me more than anything else- Oh yeah- it also makes me crave going to Manhattan to walk from one end to the other with my headphones- my advice-- never run out and always taper off halving for at least 5 days and finish with small amounts, even .25 for a week. I'm currently on 3 sticks a day :) Maybe the next seizure will kill me, but I'll go happy. One really great side effect is the memory loss- all the stuff that used to depress me has burned away.

I have been on Xanax for a couple months. 0.25 3x's a day. It is very important to take your dose on a reagular basis, without going over the dose given. I did that the first month because I enjoyed the effect, and felt as though one more would not hurt. The withdrawls and shakes only come when abused. It is very easy to become ammunied to your dose. I have a friend who has progressed to a very high dose, Has very bad withdrawls, shakes,and seizures.