Yasmin and sacrifice

So I'll refer to today as Hell Day, the day when all the horrible symptoms of my birth control pill attack me at once and I literally cannot take it. I had this exact same thing happen when I was on the nuvaring, and I stopped it immediately. I'm willing to sacrifice having 100% safe sex if it means I don't have to feel like I'd rather shove a knife through my brain than exist. It's only my second month of Yasmin, and I'm feeling more fatigued than ever before in my life. I feel so horribly depressed. It's beautiful outside and I was lying on the grass, thinking only about being DEAD. I'm not one to be depressed. The only other time I've felt this awful was my third month into the Nuvaring. I specifically asked my doctor for something that wouldn't make me depressed, nor gain weight. Well, I gained about 5 pounds that won't come off no matter how hard I try, and the depression is just getting worse and worse. I'm stopping this pill tomorrow.

Other symptoms included:
*Initially: a sharp breathing pain under my left lung
*Weird, small rash on my leg
*Would rather be in bed than do anything
*Overwhelming feeling of loneliness, questioning self-worth, etc.

My Update:

I am now 1 month (approx) post Yasmin and feeling MUCH more like my normal self. The anxiety is nearly gone; very little of it and if I feel it coming I can now divert my thoughts and most of the time it goes away. I am probably 85-90% back to how I used to be.

My energy is back and I am not so 'doom & gloom' with my feelings. The heart palps have stopped almost completely as well.

TWOGIRLSMOM- I hope your issues subside once your period ends if not sooner. I have not a clue if/when I will have my next period as I have always had very irregular periods. I have seen others post-yasmin say that around PMS/period time the symptoms came back to some degree. I am hoping this does not happen. The Xanax helped me get through the worst days and it's been a week since I have needed one. Sending you a virtual hug that things improve for you asap.

Here's to everyone else going through this hell...may we all be happy & healthy again soon.

To those considering taking Yasmin PLEASE don't!!! This is the WORST pill I have been on in my life; and I have taken many types of bcps in the past to regulate my PCOS symptoms. NEVER have I experienced such a horrific life change do to this pill. I was only on it for 3 months and it completely ended my normal life during that time. I feel robbed of those three months and I don't want anyone else to sacrifice anything for this awful pill; it's just not worth it.

Denise